I have said that my aunt was very unlike my father.  I believe that without the slightest tinge of a bad heart she had the coldest that ever filled a human breast:  it was totally incapable of any affection.  She took me under her protection because she considered it her duty; but she had too long lived alone and undisturbed by the noise and prattle of children to allow that I should disturb her quiet.  She had never been married; and for the last five years had lived perfectly alone on an estate, that had descended to her through her mother, on the shores of Loch Lomond in Scotland.  My father had expressed a wish in his letters that she should reside with me at his family mansion which was situated in a beautiful country near Richmond in Yorkshire.  She would not consent to this proposition, but as soon as she had arranged the affairs which her brother’s departure had caused to fall to her care, she quitted England and took me with her to her scotch estate.

The care of me while a baby, and afterwards untill I had reached my eighth year devolved on a servant of my mother’s, who had accompanied us in our retirement for that purpose.  I was placed in a remote part of the house, and only saw my aunt at stated hours.  These occurred twice a day; once about noon she came to my nursery, and once after her dinner I was taken to her.  She never caressed me, and seemed all the time I staid in the room to fear that I should annoy her by some childish freak.  My good nurse always schooled me with the greatest care before she ventured into the parlour—­and the awe my aunt’s cold looks and few constrained words inspired was so great that I seldom disgraced her lessons or was betrayed from the exemplary stillness which I was taught to observe during these short visits.[11]

Under my good nurse’s care I ran wild about our park and the neighbouring fields.  The offspring of the deepest love I displayed from my earliest years the greatest sensibility of disposition.  I cannot say with what passion I loved every thing even the inanimate objects that surrounded me.  I believe that I bore an individual attachment to every tree in our park; every animal that inhabited it knew me and I loved them.  Their occasional deaths filled my infant heart with anguish.  I cannot number the birds that I have saved during the long and severe winters of that climate; or the hares and rabbits that I have defended from the attacks of our dogs, or have nursed when accidentally wounded.

When I was seven years of age my nurse left me.  I now forget the cause of her departure if indeed I ever knew it.  She returned to England, and the bitter tears she shed at parting were the last I saw flow for love of me for many years.  My grief was terrible:  I had no friend but her in the whole world.  By degrees I became reconciled to solitude but no one supplied her place in my affections.  I lived in a desolate country where