Nocturne eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 206 pages of information about Nocturne.

Nocturne eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 206 pages of information about Nocturne.
attack with counter-attack, keeping her head, surveying with the instinctive irreverence and self-protective wariness of the London urchin the possibilities and swaying fortunes of the fight.  Emmy, so much slower, so much less self-reliant, had no refuge but in scolding that grew shriller and more shrill until it ended in violent weeping, a withdrawal from the field entirely abject.  She was not a born fighter.  She was harder on the surface, but weaker in powers below the surface.  Her long solitudes had made her build up grievances, and devastating thoughts, had given her a thousand bitter things to fling into the conflict; but they had not strengthened her character, and she could not stand the strain of prolonged argument.  Sooner or later she would abandon everything, exhausted, and beaten into impotence.  She could bear more, endure more, than Jenny; she could bear much, so that the story of her life might be read as one long scene of endurance of things which Jenny would have struggled madly to overcome or to escape.  But having borne for so long, she could fight only like a cat, her head as it were turned aside, her fur upon end, stealthily moving paw by paw, always keeping her front to the foe, but seeking for escape—­until the pride perilously supporting her temper gave way and she dissolved into incoherence and quivering sobs.

It might have been said roughly that Jenny more closely resembled her father, whose temperament in her care-free, happy-go-lucky way she understood very well (better than Emmy did), and that while she carried into her affairs a necessarily more delicate refinement than his she had still the dare-devil spirit that Pa’s friends had so much admired.  She had more humour than Emmy—­more power to laugh, to be detached, to be indifferent.  Emmy had no such power.  She could laugh; but she could only laugh seriously, or at obviously funny things.  Otherwise, she felt everything too much.  As Jenny would have said, she “couldn’t take a joke.”  It made her angry, or puzzled, to be laughed at.  Jenny laughed back, and tried to score a point in return, not always scrupulously.  Emmy put a check on her tongue.  She was sometimes virtuously silent.  Jenny rarely put a check on her tongue.  She sometimes let it say perfectly outrageous things, and was surprised at the consequences.  For her it was enough that she had not meant to hurt.  She sometimes hurt very much.  She frequently hurt Emmy to the quick, darting in one of her sure careless stabs that shattered Emmy’s self-control.  So while they loved each other, Jenny also despised Emmy, while Emmy in return hated and was jealous of Jenny, even to the point of actively wishing in moments of furtive and shamefaced savageness to harm her.  That was the outward difference between the sisters in time of stress.  Of their inner, truer, selves it would be more rash to speak, for in times of peace Jenny had innumerable insights and emotions that would be forever unknown

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