All day long we lay listening to the fighting, for we could not sleep.  We had to stay in the trench three days and four nights before we were relieved.  Water and food were brought to us, or fetched by our men at night, as we did not venture to leave the trench by day.  We were safe enough, for the bombs had not much effect on the sand-walls of our trench, and there was always time to stoop to avoid them.  The following morning news was brought to us that the enemy had abandoned the whole line of battle and were retreating in the direction of Chieveley.

The battle of the Tugela had lasted eight days.

I had again hurt my knee, and had to leave Ladysmith for Pretoria, from whence I went to Warmbad at Waterberg to stay for a few weeks with Mrs. Klein-Frikkie Grobler, who received me most kindly.  My brother Frits got leave for the first time then, too, and Willem remained at Ladysmith.  During my absence the English broke through at Pieter’s Heights, where Willem was made prisoner and Luettig, Malherbe and Stuart de Villiers were killed.  Meanwhile Frits had gone, with some other Pretoria men, to the Orange Free State, where the enemy had surrounded General Cronje.

Since the beginning of the siege our burghers always thought the town would fall soon.  ’The khakies cannot hold out any longer!  They have no provisions, and their ammunition must be coming to an end!  Buller can never cross the Tugela, our positions are too good!  What does it matter if I do go on leave?  The khakies cannot get through!’ That was the opinion of most of the burghers.  And if anyone ventured to point out that the enemy might force their way through because we did not all do our duty, he was either not believed or looked upon as a traitor.  Meanwhile enthusiasm was dying out.  The burghers lay in their lagers or went home, trusting to the few willing ones, who ultimately proved not strong enough to withstand the overwhelming force that Buller brought to bear upon one point of our positions when he was obliged to force his way through at no matter what cost.

No leave should have been given during the war, and here I may as well mention—­although this tale does not pretend to be a history of the war—­that it has been carried on with far too great laxity, owing to the ignorance of our Generals and the demoralizing influence of self-interest and nepotism.  We should have sent our forces far into the Cape Colony to get help from our brothers in a war that had been forced upon us by England.  The Colonial Afrikanders never had the opportunity of standing by us, because we did not supply them with the necessary ammunition or stretch out our hands towards them.  Unless they had help from our invading forces, they dared not risk a rising, because of the confiscation of their property in case of failure.