hoped we might meet again in heaven, and I at once
commenced to pray, to the best of my knowledge, “Our
Father art in Heaven, be Thy name, kingdom come.—Amen.”
But, at this time, words of my master obtruded into
my mind that God did not care for black folks, as
he did not make them, but the d—–l
did. Then I thought of the old saying amongst
us, as stated by our master, that, when God was making
man, He made white man out of the best clay, as potters
make china, and the d—–l was watching,
and he immediately took up some black mud and made
a black man, and called him a nigger. My master
was continually impressing upon me the necessity of
being a good boy, and used to say, that if I was good,
and behaved as well to him as my mother had done,
I should go to Heaven without a question being asked.
My mother having often said the same, I determined
from that day to be a good boy, and constantly frequented
the Meeting-house attended by the blacks where I learned
from the minister, Mr. Cobb, how much the Lord had
done for the blacks and for their salvation; and he
was in the habit of reminding us what advantages he
had given us for our benefit, for when we were in our
native country, Africa, we were destitute of Bible
light, worshipping idols of sticks and stones, and
barbarously murdering one another, God put it into
the hearts of these good slaveholders to venture across
the bosom of the hazardous Atlantic to Africa, and
snatch us poor negroes as brands from the eternal
burning, and bring us where we might sit under the
droppings of his sanctuary, and learn the ways of industry
and the way to God. “Oh, niggers! how happy
are your eyes which see this heavenly light; many
millions of niggers desired it long, but died without
the sight. I frequently envy your situations,
because God’s special blessing seems to be ever
over you, as though you were a select people, for how
much happier is your position than that of a free
man, who, if sick, must pay his doctor’s bill;
if hungry, must supply his wants by his own exertions;
if thirsty, must refresh himself by his own aid.
And yet you, oh, niggers! your master has all this
care for you. He supplies your daily wants; your
meat and your drink he provides; and when you are sick
he finds the best skill to bring you to health as
soon as possible, for your sickness is his loss, and
your health his gain; and, above all when you die (if
you are obedient to your masters, and good niggers),
your black faces will shine like black jugs around
the throne of God.” Such was the religious
instruction I was in the habit of receiving until I
was about seventeen years old; and told that when
at any time I happened to be offended, or struck by
a white boy I was not to offend or strike in return,
unless it was another black, then I might fight as
hard as I chose in my own defence. It happened
about this time there was a white boy who was continually
stealing my tops and marbles, and one morning when
doing so I caught him, and we had a battle, and I