In the morning Mr. Boylan, true as ever, and unflinching in his friendship, assisted me in arranging my business,[A] so that I should start with my family that day for the north.  He furnished us with provisions more than sufficient to sustain the family to Philadelphia, where we intended to make a halt; and sent his own baggage wagon to convey our baggage to the depot, offering also to send his carriage for my family.  But my friend, Mr. Malone, had been before him in this kind offer, which I had agreed to accept.

[Footnote A:  Of course I was obliged to sacrifice much on my property, leaving in this hurried manner.  And while I was in the North, a kind friend had removed from the wood-lot, wood that I had cut and corded, for which I expected to receive over one hundred dollars; thus saving me the trouble of making sale of it, or of being burdened with the money it would bring.  I suppose I have no redress.  I might add other things as bad.]

Brief and sorrowful was the parting from my kind friends; but the worst was the thought of leaving my mother.  The cars were to start at ten o’clock in the morning.  I called upon my old mistress, Mrs. Haywood, who was affected to weeping by the considerations that naturally came to her mind.  She had been kind to me; the day before she and her daughter, Mrs. Hogg, now present, had jointly transmitted a communication to the court representing that in consequence of my good conduct from my youth, I could not be supposed to be guilty of any offence.  And now, “with tears that ceased not flowing,” they gave me their parting blessing.  My mother was still Mrs. Haywood’s slave, and I her only child.  Our old mistress could not witness the sorrow that would attend the parting with my mother.  She told her to go with me; and said that if I ever became able to pay two hundred dollars for her, I might; otherwise it should be her loss.  She gave her the following paper, which is in the ordinary form of a pass: 

  RALEIGH, N.C.  April 26, 1842.

Know all persons by these presents, that the bearer of this, Clarissa, a slave, belonging to me, hath my permission to visit the city of New York with her relations, who are in company with her; and it is my desire that she may be protected and permitted to pass without molestation or hindrance, on good behavior.  Witness my hand this 26th April, 1842.

  ELEANOR HAYWOOD.

  Witness—­J.A.  Campbell.

On leaving Mrs. Haywood’s, I called upon Mrs. Badger, another daughter, and wife of Judge Badger, previously mentioned.  She seemed equally affected; she wept as she gave me her parting counsel.  She and Mrs. Hogg and I had been children together, playing in the same yard, while yet none of us had learned that they were of a superior and I of a subject race.  And in those infant years there were pencillings made upon the heart, which time and opposite fortunes could not all efface.—­May these friends never be slaves as I have been; nor their bosom companions and their little ones be slaves like mine.