Sea and Shore eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 343 pages of information about Sea and Shore.

Sea and Shore eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 343 pages of information about Sea and Shore.

How perfectly I could comprehend, for the first time since this revelation, what Wentworth must have suffered beneath his burden of unrelieved doubt and conjecture!  I could see how, day by day, as no answer came to change the current of his thoughts, conviction slowly settled down like a cloud upon his heart, his reason; and what stern confirmation of all he dreaded most, my silence must have seemed to him!

All this I saw in my mental survey with pity, with concern, with wild desire to fly to him, and whisper truth and consolation in his arms; for I loved this man as it is given to passionate, earnest natures to love but once, be it early or late; loved him as Eve loved Adam, when the whole inhabited earth was given to those two alone.

“You seem in very good spirits to-day, Miss Monfort,” said Mrs. Clayton, with unusual asperity on one occasion, when, holding Ernie in my arms, I lavished endearments upon him; “your king, indeed! your angel!  I really believe you admire as well as love that hideous little elf.”

“Of course I do,” Mrs. Clayton; “all things I love are beautiful to me;” and I remembered how Bertie’s plain face had grown into touching loveliness in my sight from the affection I bore her.

“And do you really love this child?”

“Most certainly, and very tenderly too; is he not my sweetest consolation in this dreary life?”

“What if they remove him?”

“Ah! what, indeed!” and, relaxing my grasp, I clasped my hands together patiently; that thought had occurred to me before.

“It is a very strong affection to have sprung up from a short acquaintance on a raft,” she remarked, sententiously.

“I saved his infant life, you know; and the benefactor always loves the thing he benefits.  It is on this principle alone God loves his erring creatures, Mrs. Clayton, rest assured.”

“If you had loved the child with true friendship, you would have pushed him into the sea, rather than have held him in your arms above it.”

“Do you suppose he is less near to God than you or I—­to Christ the all-merciful?” I questioned, sternly.  “Much rather would I have that infant’s yet unconscious hope of heaven than either yours or mine, Mrs. Clayton!”

“But his earthly hope—­it was that I alluded to; what chance for him?  Poor, weakly, deformed; he had better be at rest than knocked from pillar to poet, as he must be in this hard, cold world of chance and change.”

“And that shall never be while I live, Ernie,” I said, taking him again in my lap, at his silent solicitation.  “Why, Mrs. Clayton, with such a noble soul, such intelligence as this child possesses, he may fill a pulpit, and save erring souls, or write such beautiful poems and romances as shall thrill the heart, or draw from an instrument sounds as divine as De Beriot’s, or paint a picture, and immortalize his name; there is nothing too good, too great for Ernie to do, should God grant him life to achieve; and, as surely as I am spared to be enfranchised, shall I make this gifted child my charge.”

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