between the master of the house and the hall-porter.
If I am sound in mind and body, if I have worth and
a pure conscience, if I know the true from the false,
if I avoid evil and do good, if I feel the dignity
of my being, if nothing lowers me in my own eyes,
then people may call me what they will,
My Lord,
or
Sirrah. To do what is good, to know
what is true—that is what distinguishes
one man from another; the rest is nothing. The
duration of life is so short, its true needs are so
narrow, and when we go away, it all matters so little
whether we have been somebody or nobody. When
the end comes, all that you want is a sorry piece
of canvas and four deal boards. In the morning
I hear the labourers under my window. Scarce
has the day dawned before they are at work with spade
and barrow, delving and wheeling. They munch a
crust of black bread; they quench their thirst at
the flowing stream; at noon they snatch an hour of
sleep on the hard ground. They are cheerful; they
sing as they work; they exchange their good broad pleasantries
with one another; they shout with laughter. At
sundown they go home to find their children naked
round a smoke-blackened hearth, a woman hideous and
dirty, and their lot is neither worse nor better than
mine. I came down from my room in bad spirits;
I heard talk about the public misery; I sat down to
a table full of good cheer without an appetite; I had
a stomach overloaded with the dainties of the day
before; I grasped a stick and set out for a walk to
find relief; I returned to play cards, and cheat the
heavy-weighing hours. I had a friend of whom I
could not hear; I was far from a woman whom I sighed
for. Troubles in the country, troubles in the
town, troubles everywhere. He who knows not trouble
is not to be counted among the children of men.
All gets paid off in time; the good by the evil, evil
by good, and life is naught. Perhaps to-morrow
night or Monday morning we may go to pass a day in
town; so I shall see the woman for whom I sighed,
and recover the man of whom I could not hear.
But I shall lose them the next day; and the more I
feel the happiness of being with them, the worse I
shall suffer at parting. That is the way that
all things go. Turn and turn and turn again; there
is ever a crumpled rose-leaf to vex you."[204]
It is not often that we find such active benevolence
as Diderot’s, in conjunction with such a vein
of philosophy as follows:—
“Ah, what a fine comedy this world would be,
if only one had not to play a part in it; if one existed,
for instance, in some point of space, in that interval
of the celestial orbs where the gods of Epicurus slumber,
far, far away, whence one could see this globe, on
which we strut so big, about the size of a pumpkin,
and whence one could watch all the airs and tricks
of that two-footed mite who calls itself man.
I would fain only look at the scenes of life in reduced
size, so that those which are stamped with atrocity
may be brought down to an inch in space, and to actors
half a line high. But how bizarre, that our sense
of revolt against injustice is in the ratio of the
space and the mass. I am furious if a large animal
unjustly attacks another. I feel nothing at all
if it is two atoms that tear and rend. How our
senses affect our morality. There is a fine text
for philosophising!"[205]