offered him any terms if he would remain. “Look
at me, sir,” replied the tutor; “my face
is as yellow as a lemon. I am making men of your
children, but each day I am becoming a child with
them. I am a thousand times too rich and too
comfortable in your house; leave it I must. What
I want is not to live better, but to avoid dying.”
Again he plunged from comfort into the life of the
garret. If he met any old friend from Langres,
he borrowed, and the honest father repaid the loan.
His mother’s savings were brought to him by
a faithful creature who had long served in their house,
and who now more than once trudged all the way from
home on this errand, and added her own humble earnings
to the little stock. Many a time the hours went
very slowly for the necessitous man. One Shrove
Tuesday he rose in the morning, and found his pockets
empty even of so much as a halfpenny. His friends
had not invited him to join their squalid Bohemian
revels. Hunger and thoughts of old Shrovetide
merriment and feasting in the far-off home made work
impossible. He hastened out of doors and walked
about all day visiting such public sights as were open
to the penniless. When he returned to his garret
at night, his landlady found him in a swoon, and with
the compassion of a good soul she forced him to share
her supper. “That day,” Diderot used
to tell his children in later years, “I promised
myself that if ever happier times should come, and
ever I should have anything, I would never refuse help
to any living creature, nor ever condemn him to the
misery of such a day as that."[6] And the real interest
of the story lies in the fact that no oath was ever
more faithfully kept. There is no greater test
of the essential richness of a man’s nature
than that this squalid adversity, not of the sentimental
introspective kind but hard and grinding, and not
even kept in countenance by respectability, fails to
make him a savage or a miser or a misanthrope.
Diderot had his bitter moments. He knew the gloom
and despondency that have their inevitable hour in
every solitary and unordered life. But the fits
did not last. They left no sour sediment, and
this is the sign of health in temperament, provided
it be not due to mere callousness. From that
horrible quality Diderot assuredly was the furthest
removed of any one of his time. Now and always
he walked with a certain large carelessness of spirit.
He measured life with a roving and liberal eye.
Circumstance and conventions, the words under which
men hide things, the oracles of common acceptance,
the infinitely diversified properties of human character,
the many complexities of our conduct and destiny—all
these he watched playing freely around him, and he
felt no haste to compress his experience into maxims
and system. He was absolutely uncramped by any
of the formal mannerisms of the spirit. He was
wholly uncorrupted by the affectation of culture with
which the great Goethe infected part of the world
a generation later. His own life was never made