I was one day in a most delightful frame of mind; my heart so overflowed with love and gratitude to the Author of all my comforts.—­I was so drawn out of myself, and so fill’d and awed by the Presence of God that I saw (or thought I saw) light inexpressible dart down from heaven upon me, and shone around me for the space of a minute.—­I continued on my knees, and joy unspeakable took possession of my soul.—­The peace and serenity which filled my mind after this was wonderful, and cannot be told.—­I would not have changed situations, or been any one but myself for the whole world.  I blest God for my poverty, that I had no worldly riches or grandeur to draw my heart from Him.  I wish’d at that time, if it had been possible for me, to have continued on that spot for ever.  I felt an unwillingness in myself to have any thing more to do with the world, or to mix with society again.  I seemed to possess a full assurance that my sins were forgiven me.  I went home all my way rejoicing, and this text of scripture came full upon my mind. "And I will make an everlasting covenant with them, that I will not turn away from them, to do them good; but I will put my fear in their hearts that they shall not depart from me." The first opportunity that presented itself, I went to my old school-master, and made known to him the happy state of my soul who joined with me in praise to God for his mercy to me the vilest of sinners.—­I was now perfectly easy, and had hardly a wish to make beyond what I possess’d, when my temporal comforts were all blasted by the death of my dear and worthy Master Mr. Freelandhouse, who was taken from this world rather suddenly:  he had but a short illness, and died of a fever.  I held his hand in mine when he departed; he told me he had given me my freedom.  I was at liberty to go where I would.—­He added that he had always pray’d for me and hop’d I should be kept unto the end.  My master left me by his will ten pounds, and my freedom.

I found that if he had lived ’twas his intention to take me with him to Holland, as he had often mention’d me to some friends of his there that were desirous to see me; but I chose to continue with my Mistress who was as good to me as if she had been my mother.

The loss of Mr. Freelandhouse distress’d me greatly, but I was render’d still more unhappy by the clouded and perplex’d situation of my mind; the great enemy of my soul being ready to torment me, would present my own misery to me in such striking light, and distress me with doubts, fears, and such a deep sense of my own unworthiness, that after all the comfort and encouragement I had received, I was often tempted to believe I should be a Cast-away at last.—­The more I saw of the Beauty and Glory of God, the more I was humbled under a sense of my own vileness.  I often repair’d to my old place of prayer; I seldom came away without consolation.  One day this Scripture was wonderfully apply’d to my mind, "And ye are compleat in Him which is the Head of all principalities and power."—­The Lord was pleas’d to comfort me by the application of many gracious promises at times when I was ready to sink under my troubles. "Wherefore He is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by Him seeing He ever liveth to make intercession for them. Hebrews x. ver. 14. For by one offering He hath perfected for ever them that are sanctified."