Living Alone eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 165 pages of information about Living Alone.

Living Alone eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 165 pages of information about Living Alone.

She took up a thin captain biscuit and bit it absent-mindedly.  It trembled in her hand like a leaf.

“Yes, it is true that Rrchud isn’t like other women’s boys.  You know it, Meta.  Angela evidently knows it, and—­at least since yesterday—­I know that I know it.  His not being able to read or write—­I always knew in my heart that my old worn-out tag—­’We can’t all be literary geniuses’—­didn’t meet the case.  His way of disappearing and never explaining....  Do you know, I have only once seen him with other boys, doing the same as other boys, and that was when I saw him marching with hundreds of real boys ... in 1914....  It was the happiest day I ever had, I thought after all that I had borne a real boy.  Well, then, as you know, he couldn’t get a commission, couldn’t even get his stripe, poor darling.  He deserted twice—­pure absence of mind—­it was always the same from a child—­’I wanted to see further,’ he’d say, and of course worse in the trenches.  Why, you know it all, Angela dear—­at least, perhaps not quite all.  I should like to tell you—­because you said that about the splendour of being the mother of Rrchud....

“Pinehurst—­my husband, he is a doctor, you know—­had that same passion for seeing further.  He was often ill in London.  I said it was asthma, but he said it was not being able to see far enough.  We were in America for Rrchud’s birth, and Pinehurst insisted on going West.  I took the precaution of having a good nurse with me.  Pinehurst said the East was full of little obstacles, and people’s eyes had sucked all the secrets out of the horizon, he said.  I like Cape Cod, but he said there was always a wall of sea round those flat wet places.  We stayed in a blacksmith’s spare room on the desert of Wyoming, but even that horizon seemed a little higher than we, and one clear day, in a pink sunrise, we saw something that might have been a dream, my dears, and might have been the Rockies.  Pinehurst couldn’t stand that, we pushed west—­so tahsome.  We climbed a little narrow track up a mountain, in a light buggy that a goldminer lent us.  Oh, of course, you’ll think us mad, Meta, but, do you know, we actually found the world’s edge, a place with no horizon; we looked between ragged pine trees, and saw over the shoulders of great old violet mountains—­we saw right down into the stars for ever....  There was a tower of rocks—­rose-red rocks in sloping layers—­sunny hot by day, my dears, and a great shelter by night.  You know, the little dark clouds walk alone upon the mountain tops at sunset—­as you said, Angela—­they are like trees, and sometimes like faces, and sometimes like the shadows of little bent gipsies....  I used to look at the mountains and think:  ’What am I about, to be so worried and so small, in sight of such an enormous storm of mountains under a gold sky?’ I think of those rocks often at night, standing just as we left them, all by themselves, under that unnatural moon,—­it was an unnatural moon on the edge

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