Find, and join them, and try to seem
A fourth for the old queer
merry three,
With my fame as much of a yearning dream
As my morrow’s dinner
was wont to be.
But the wit would lag, and the mirth would
lack,
And the god of jollity hear
no call,
And the prosperous broadcloth on my back
Hung over their spirits like
a pall!
It was not that they failed, each one,
to try
Their warmth of welcome to
speak and show;
I should just have risen and said good-bye,
With a haughty look, had they
served me so.
It was rather that each would seem, instead,
With not one vestige of spleen
or pride,
Across a chasm of change to spread
His greeting hands to the
further side.
And our gladdest words rang strange and
cold,
Like the echoes of other long-lost
words;
And the nights were no more the nights
of old
Than spring would be spring
without the birds!
So they waned and waned, these visits
of mine,
’Till I married the
heiress, ending here.
For if caste approves the cigars and wine,
She must frown perforce upon
pipes and beer.
And now ’tis years since I saw these
men,
Years since I knew them living
yet.
And of this alone I am sure since then,—
That none has gained what
he toiled to get.
For I keep strict watch on the world of
art,
And George, with his wide,
rich-dowered brain!
His fervent fancy, his ardent heart,
Though he greatly toiled,
has toiled in vain.
And Fred, for all he may sparkle bright
In caustic column, in clever
quip,
Of a truth must still be hiding his light
Beneath the bushel of journalship.
And dreamy Frank must be dreaming still,
Lounging through life, if
yet alive,
Smoking his vast preposterous fill,
Lounging, smoking, striving
to strive.
And I, the fourth in that old queer throng,
Fourth and least, as my soul
avows,—
I alone have been counted strong,
I alone have the laurelled
brows!
Well, and what has it all been worth?
May not my soul to my soul
confess
That “succeeding,” here upon
earth,
Does not alway assume success?
I would cast, and gladly, from this gray
head
Its crown, to regain one sweet
lost year
With artist George, with splenetic Fred,
With dreamy Frank, with the
pipes and beer!
EDGAR FAWCETT.
A BACHELOR’S INVOCATION.
When all my plans have come to grief,
And every bill
is due,
And every faith that’s worth belief
Has proved itself
untrue;
And when, as now, I’ve jilted been
By every girl
I’ve met,
Ah! then I flee for peace to thee,
My darling cigarette.