avoid remark, would still be remarkable. I had
cultivated his acquaintance subsequently, and endeavoured
to obtain his friendship, but this last appeared to
be unattainable; whatever affections he might have
possessed, seemed now, some to have been extinguished,
and others to be concentred: that his feelings
were acute, I had sufficient opportunities of observing;
for, although he could control, he could not altogether
disguise them: still he had a power of giving
to one passion the appearance of another, in such
a manner that it was difficult to define the nature
of what was working within him; and the expressions
of his features would vary so rapidly, though slightly,
that it was useless to trace them to their sources.
It was evident that he was a prey to some cureless
disquiet; but whether it arose from ambition, love,
remorse, grief, from one or all of these, or merely
from a morbid temperament akin to disease, I could
not discover: there were circumstances alleged,
which might have justified the application to each
of these causes; but, as I have before said, these
were so contradictory and contradicted, that none
could be fixed upon with accuracy. Where there
is mystery, it is generally supposed that there must
also be evil: I know not how this may be, but
in him there certainly was the one, though I could
not ascertain the extent of the other—and
felt loth, as far as regarded himself, to believe in
its existence. My advances were received with
sufficient coldness; but I was young, and not easily
discouraged, and at length succeeded in obtaining,
to a certain degree, that common-place intercourse
and moderate confidence of common and every-day concerns,
created and cemented by similarity of pursuit and
frequency of meeting, which is called intimacy, or
friendship, according to the ideas of him who uses
those words to express them.
Darvell had already travelled extensively; and to
him I had applied for information with regard to the
conduct of my intended journey. It was my secret
wish that he might be prevailed on to accompany me;
it was also a probable hope, founded upon the shadowy
restlessness which I observed in him, and to which
the animation which he appeared to feel on such subjects,
and his apparent indifference to all by which he was
more immediately surrounded, gave fresh strength.
This wish I first hinted, and then expressed:
his answer, though I had partly expected it, gave
me all the pleasure of surprise—he consented;
and, after the requisite arrangement, we commenced
our voyages. After journeying through various
countries of the south of Europe, our attention was
turned towards the East, according to our original
destination; and it was in my progress through those
regions that the incident occurred upon which will
turn what I may have to relate.
The constitution of Darvell, which must from his appearance
have been in early life more than usually robust,
had been for some time gradually giving way, without
the intervention of any apparent disease: he
had neither cough nor hectic, yet he became daily more
enfeebled: his habits were temperate, and he neither
declined nor complained of fatigue; yet he was evidently
wasting away: he became more and more silent
and sleepless, and at length so seriously altered,
that my alarm grew proportionate to what I conceived
to be his danger.