direction that it did not long detain her thoughts,
and she found herself pondering more on the disclosure
Eugene had made of Stafford’s feelings than
on his revelation of his own. It is difficult,
without the aid of subtle distinctions, to say exactly
what degree of surprise she felt at the news.
She must, no doubt, have seen that Stafford was greatly
attracted to her, and probably she would have felt
that the description of his state of mind as that of
a man in love only erred to the extent that a general
description must err when applied to a particular
case. But she was both surprised and disturbed
at hearing that Stafford intended to act upon his
feelings, and the very fact of her power having overcome
him did him evil service in her thoughts. The
secret of his charm for her lay exactly in the attitude
of renunciation that he was now abandoning. She
had been half inclined to fall in love with him just
because there was no question of his falling in love
with her. Her feelings toward Eugene, which lay
deeper than she confessed, had prevented her actually
losing her heart, or doing more than contemplate the
picture of her romantic passion, banned by all manner
of awful sanctions, as a not uninteresting possibility.
By abandoning his position Stafford abandoned one
great source of strength. On the other hand,
he no doubt gained something. Claudia was not
insensible to that aspect of the case which Ayre had
apprehended would influence her so powerfully.
She did perceive the halo of romance; and the idea
of an Ajax defying heavenly lightning for her sake
had its attractiveness. But Ayre reasoning, as
a man is prone and perhaps obliged to do, from himself
to another, had omitted to take account of a factor
in Claudia’s mind about the existence of which,
even if it had been suggested to him, he would have
been profoundly skeptical. Ayre had never been
able, or at least never given himself the trouble,
to understand how real a thing Stafford’s vow
had been to him, and what a struggle was necessary
before he could disregard it. He would have been
still more at a loss to appreciate the force which
the same vow exercised over Claudia. Stafford
himself had strengthened this feeling in her.
Although the subject of celibacy, and celibacy by
oath, had not been discussed openly between them,
yet in their numerous conversations Stafford had not
failed to respond to her sympathetic invitations so
far as to give himself full liberty in descanting
on the excellences of the life he had chosen for himself.
Every word he had spoken in its praise now rose to
condemn its betrayal. And Claudia, who had been
brought up in entire removal from the spirit which
made Ayre and Eugene treat Stafford’s vow as
one of the picturesque indiscretions of devotion,
was unable to look upon the breaking of it in any
other light than that of a falsehood and an act of
treachery. Religion was to her a series of definite
commands, and although her temperament was not such