of indestructible existence, and he would as soon expect
to see the sun blotted from heaven as a parent removed
from earth! And when his ethical perceptions
awake, he has another experience of a similar character.
His father and mother stand to him for the very moral
order itself! To his mind, it is inconceivable
that they should ever err, and the bare suggestion
that those august and venerable beings can really sin,
fills him with horror and incredulity. If he,
therefore, sometime learns that they have committed
a trifling indiscretion, he trembles, and if, in some
tragic moment, irresistible proof is brought to bear
on him that they have been guilty of a dark and desperate
deed, the whole moral system seems to undergo a sudden
and final collapse! There is no longer any standing-ground
beneath his feet and he could not be driven into a
deeper despair if God himself had yielded to temptation.
This discovery and this despair had fallen to the
lot of David, and he had cherished the impressions,
formed in that dark hour, through all these many months.
But now, returning to the scenes of his boyhood and
bringing back his burdens of care and sin, bringing
back also his deepened experience of life and his
enlarged ability, to comprehend its difficulties and
sorrows, he suddenly saw the conduct and character
of his mother in a new light. He, too, had met
temptation, had fallen, had gone down into the depths,
and in that awful and interpretative experience, comprehended
the victory which his mother had won on the field
of dishonor and defeat! He was now enabled to
reconstruct, by the aid of his enlightened imagination,
a true picture of the events which she had sketched
so imperfectly in those few brief words. He realized
what she must have had to struggle against, and could
measure the whole weight of guilt and despair that
must have rested on her heart. He knew only too
well how easy was the road into darkness, and how rugged
the one leading up into the light; yet this frail
woman had followed it and scaled those heights!
She had been able to put that past into the background,
and keep it where it belonged. She had hidden
her sorrows in her heart; nothing had daunted her;
no discouragement had cast her down. By a wonderful
grace she had concealed her sin from some, and made
others fear even to whisper the knowledge they possessed.
She had made that sin a torch to illumine her future.
She had used it as a stepping stone to ascend into
purity and holiness. He could not remember in
all those long years of devotion and of love, that
she had ever permitted him to feel a moment’s
distrust of her perfect purity and goodness; and this
seemed to him a miracle! That purity and goodness
must have been real! So protracted an hypocrisy
would have been impossible. Whence, then, had
she derived the power thus to rise superior to her
past? She had shown its terrific spell over her
sensibilities by dying with shame when she at last
proclaimed it, and yet for twenty years she had kept
it under her feet like a writhing dragon, while she
calmly fought her fight. It was incredible, sublime!