The truth is, Catholicism oscillates between mysticism, which is the inward experience of the living God in Christ, an intransmittible experience, the danger of which, however, is that it absorbs our own personality in God, and so does not save our vital longing—­between mysticism and the rationalism which it fights against (see Weizsaecker, op. cit.); it oscillates between religionized science and scientificized religion.  The apocalyptic enthusiasm changed little by little into neo-platonic mysticism, which theology thrust further into the background.  It feared the excesses of the imagination which was supplanting faith and creating gnostic extravagances.  But it had to sign a kind of pact with gnosticism and another with rationalism; neither imagination nor reason allowed itself to be completely vanquished.  And thus the body of Catholic dogma became a system of contradictions, more or less successfully harmonized.  The Trinity was a kind of pact between monotheism and polytheism, and humanity and divinity sealed a peace in Christ, nature covenanted with grace, grace with free will, free will with the Divine prescience, and so on.  And it is perhaps true, as Hermann says (loc. cit.), that “as soon as we develop religious thought to its logical conclusions, it enters into conflict with other ideas which belong equally to the life of religion.”  And this it is that gives to Catholicism its profound vital dialectic.  But at what a cost?

At the cost, it must needs be said, of doing violence to the mental exigencies of those believers in possession of an adult reason.  It demands from them that they shall believe all or nothing, that they shall accept the complete totality of dogma or that they shall forfeit all merit if the least part of it be rejected.  And hence the result, as the great Unitarian preacher Channing pointed out,[25] that in France and Spain there are multitudes who have proceeded from rejecting Popery to absolute atheism, because “the fact is, that false and absurd doctrines, when exposed, have a natural tendency to beget scepticism in those who received them without reflection.  None are so likely to believe too little as those who have begun by believing too much.”  Here is, indeed, the terrible danger of believing too much.  But no! the terrible danger comes from another quarter—­from seeking to believe with the reason and not with life.

The Catholic solution of our problem, of our unique vital problem, the problem of the immortality and eternal salvation of the individual soul, satisfies the will, and therefore satisfies life; but the attempt to rationalize it by means of dogmatic theology fails to satisfy the reason.  And reason has its exigencies as imperious as those of life.  It is no use seeking to force ourselves to consider as super-rational what clearly appears to us to be contra-rational, neither is it any good wishing to become coalheavers when we are not coalheavers.  Infallibility, a notion of Hellenic origin, is in its essence a rationalistic category.