The finger of God—­one can’t get away from it.  If it pushes you toward the light, then rejoice exceedingly and with a loud voice; if it pushes you into the dark, then swallow your tongue and go silently.  It seemed to Dale that he comprehended the whole scope and purport of his doom, and that God’s tremendous logic made the justice of his doom unanswerable.  He understood that the law which he had himself set up was to be binding now.  He must execute himself, as he had executed Everard Barradine.  It is for this, the hour of hopelessness and despair, that God has been waiting.  Now it is God’s good time.  God has slowly taught him his worthlessness and infamy, so that he may die despairing.

XXXIII

“Mavis,” he said, after supper that evening “I’ve noticed a branch at the top of the walnut tree that doesn’t look to me too safe.  I must lop that tree first chance I get—­or we shall have an accident.”

Next morning he was up and dressed before the sun rose, and he came down-stairs very softly, carrying his boots in his hands, and pausing now and then to listen.  The house was quite silent, with no one stirring yet except himself.  He sat on the lowest step of the stairs and put on his boots, listened again, then quietly let himself out of the front door.

On the threshold the cool morning air rushed into his lungs, expanding them widely, making him draw deep breaths merely for the pleasure of tasting its freshness and sweetness.  The light was still gray and dim, and the buildings round the yard were vague and shadowy.  In the garden there was a delicious perfume of roses—­those most beautiful of all flowers pouring out their fragrant charms, although their glory of color had not yet burst forth from the shadows of night.

Moving like a shadow himself, he hurried noiselessly to his work.  One of the shorter ladders would be long enough to reach the lower branches, and he could climb from them as high as he wished.  He fetched the ladder from the yard, fixed it in position against the walnut tree, and then went back to the yard for the other things he wanted.

In the loft where the tools were kept he remained much longer than he had intended.  At first there was scarcely any light at all up here, and, having stupidly forgotten to bring a box of matches, he had to grope about fumblingly; but gradually the light improved.  He found a saw, and, attaching it to a light cord, slung it round his neck in the approved woodman fashion.  The saw would be carried merely for the sake of appearances.  Then he hunted for the particular rope that he required for his purposes, and could not find it.  He had seen it two days ago, neatly rolled, in the corner with other tackle; but now the corner was all untidy, a confused mass of cordage, and the good new strong rope was concealing itself beneath weak old rubbish.  He knew that he could trust this rope, because it was the exact fellow of the one on the pulleys—­and with the pulley rope they let down loads that were a good deal heavier than any man.