They did not look, and after a chorus of exclamations ("Most mysterious!” “What can have become of her?” “On the eve of her fete too!”) they began to discuss disappearances in general, each illustrating his point by reference to the subject of his own study.
“Perfectly extraordinary how people disappear nowadays,” said one.
“Extraordinary, sir?” said the old colonel, looking over his spectacles, “why should it be extraordinary that one person should disappear when whole nations—the ten tribes for example. . . .”
“But that’s a different thing altogether,” said the old clergyman. “Now if you had quoted Biblical examples—Elisha or perhaps Jonah. . . .”
After the discussion had gone on for several minutes in this way I rose from the table on my trembling limbs and slipped out of the room.
It would take long to tell of the feverish days that followed—how newspaper correspondents were sent from London to Ellan to inquire into the circumstances of my disappearance; how the theory of accident gave place to the theory of suicide, and the theory of suicide to the theory of flight; how a porter on the pier at Blackwater said he had carried my trunk to the steamer that sailed on Thursday midnight, thinking I was a maid from the great house until I had given him half-a-crown (his proper fee being threepence); how two female passengers had declared that a person answering to my description had sailed with them to Liverpool; how these clues had been followed up and had led to nothing; and how, finally, the correspondents had concluded the whole incident of my disappearance could not be more mysterious if I had been dropped from mid-air into the middle of the Irish Sea.
But then came another development.
My father, who was reported to have received the news of my departure in a way that suggested he had lost control of his senses (raging and storming at my husband like a man demented), having come to the conclusion that I, being in a physical condition peculiar to women, had received a serious shock resulting in a loss of memory, offered five hundred pounds reward for information that would lead to my discovery, which was not only desirable to allay the distress of my heart-broken family but urgently necessary to settle important questions of title and inheritance.
With this offer of a reward came a description of my personal appearance.
"Age 20, a little under medium height; slight; very black hair; lustrous dark eyes; regular features; pale face; grave expression; unusually sunny smile."
It would be impossible for me to say with what perturbation I heard these reports read out by the old colonel and the old clergyman. Even the nervous stirring of my spoon and the agitated clatter of my knife and fork made me wonder that my house-mates did not realise the truth, which must I thought, be plainly evident to all eyes.
They never did, being so utterly immersed in their own theories. But all the same I sometimes felt as if my fellow guests in that dingy house in Bloomsbury were my judges and jury, and more than once, in my great agitation, when the reports came near to the truth, I wanted to cry. “Stop, stop, don’t you see it is I?”