accepts in all the severity of its literal meaning.
The story of the terrible penances which he inflicted
on himself for part of his life is painful and almost
repulsive to read; but they have nothing in common
with the ostentatious self-torture of the fakir.
Suso’s deeply affectionate and poetical temperament,
with its strong human loves and sympathies, made the
life of the cloister very difficult for him. He
accepted it as the highest life, and strove to conform
himself to its ideals; and when, after sixteen years
of cruel austerities, he felt that his “refractory
body” was finally tamed, he discontinued his
mortifications, and entered upon a career of active
usefulness. In this he had still heavier crosses
to carry, for he was persecuted and falsely accused,
while the spiritual consolations which had cheered
him in his early struggles were often withdrawn.
In his old age, shortly before his death in 1365,
he published the history of his life, which is one
of the most interesting and charming of all autobiographies.
Suso’s literary gift is very remarkable.
Unlike most ecstatic mystics, who declare on each
occasion that “tongue cannot utter” their
experiences, Suso’s store of glowing and vivid
language never fails. The hunger and thirst of
the soul for God, and the answering love of Christ
manifested in the inner man, have never found a more
pure and beautiful expression. In the hope of
inducing more readers to become acquainted with this
gem of mediaeval literature, I will give a few extracts
from its pages.
“The servitor of the eternal Wisdom,”
as he calls himself throughout the book, made the
first beginning of his perfect conversion to God in
his eighteenth year. Before that, he had lived
as others live, content to avoid deadly sin; but all
the time he had felt a gnawing reproach within him.
Then came the temptation to be content with gradual
progress, and to “treat himself well.”
But “the eternal Wisdom” said to him,
“He who seeks with tender treatment to conquer
a refractory body, wants common sense. If thou
art minded to forsake all, do so to good purpose.”
The stern command was obeyed.[261] Very soon—it
is the usual experience of ascetic mystics—he
was encouraged by rapturous visions. One such,
which came to him on St. Agnes’ Day, he thus
describes:—“It was without form or
mode, but contained within itself the most entrancing
delight. His heart was athirst and yet satisfied.
It was a breaking forth of the sweetness of eternal
life, felt as present in the stillness of contemplation.
Whether he was in the body or out of the body, he
knew not.” It lasted about an hour and a
half; but gleams of its light continued to visit him
at intervals for some time after.