But she was thinking while she spoke, “So that is old age—so that is what it means to be old?” There is a vague compassion in the thought, but it held no terror, for the decay of Miss Amelia seemed as utterly remote and detached from her own life as one of the past ages in history. The youth in her brain created a radiant illusion of immortality. By no stretch of imagination could she picture herself like the infirm and loveless creature before her. Yet she knew, without realizing it, that Miss Amelia had once been young, that she had once even been beautiful. There was a legend, fading now into tradition, that her lover had been killed in a duel, fought for her while she was still a girl, and that she had worn only white or black since that day—she who was now well over eighty. She had known love; a man had died for her; it was said that she had been a famous coquette in the ’thirties; and now she stood there, grotesque and sexless, with her eyes empty of dreams and of memories, and her face as gray and sinister as the face of her shadow.
“I hope she is better, poor child,” she said, for, like the rest of Richmond, she believed Jane to be all saint and Charley all sinner. “If I can be of any help, be sure to let me know.”
“Yes, I’ll let you know, thank you. I hope we didn’t disturb Miss Jemima.”
The younger Miss Peterborough—called “the happy one” by Gabriella and Mrs. Carr because she was always cheerful, though, as far as any one could tell, she had nothing and had never had anything to be cheerful about—was named Jemima. A chronic invalid, from some obscure trouble which had not left her for twenty years, she was seldom free from pain, and yet Gabriella had never seen her (except at funerals, for which she entertained a perfectly healthy fondness as diversions free to the poor) without a smile on her face.
“Sister Jemima doesn’t wake easily. She is a sound sleeper and she’s getting a little hard of hearing”; and lifting the candlestick to light her way, Miss Amelia turned back up the stairs, while the flame flitted like a golden moth into the dimness.
“Poor old thing,” thought Gabriella, imagining in her ignorance that she could understand the tragedy of Miss Amelia’s life; “poor old thing, she must have had a terrible time.”
As she approached her mother’s door, Charley came out, glanced at her sheepishly, and hurried to where his hat hung on the walnut hatrack in the front hall. Then, as if overcoming his first impulse to avoid her, he beckoned to her furtively, and said in a sepulchral whisper: “Gabriella, be very careful what you say to her.”
The audacity of it! This from Charley, the abandoned, the depraved, the unutterably abhorrent in her sight. Without replying, she turned indignantly away and opened her mother’s door.
Lying in the middle of the bed now, and slightly propped with pillows, Jane was sipping a second dose of medicine from a glass Mrs. Carr held to her lips.