Life and Gabriella eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 578 pages of information about Life and Gabriella.

Life and Gabriella eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 578 pages of information about Life and Gabriella.

     Your devoted mother,
     Fanny Carr.

Did I remember to tell you that Miss Polly Hatch has gone to New York to look after her nephew’s children?  He lost his wife a few months ago, and was left with four little children, the youngest only a year old.

So her punishment had come!  As Gabriella dropped the letter into her lap, and looked at little Frances, so good and happy in her crib, she felt that she was punished not only for her reckless marriage, but for all the subterfuge, all the deceit which had followed it.  She had not told her mother the truth, for she, also, had been chiefly concerned with “keeping up an appearance.”  For the purpose of shielding George, who was blandly indifferent to her shielding, she had lied to her mother, if not in words, yet in an evasion of the truth, and the result was that her lies and her evasions had recoiled not on George’s head, but on her own.  For George wouldn’t care.  So little value did he place upon Mrs. Carr’s good opinion, that he would not care even if Gabriella were to tell her the truth.  And if she had only been honest!  If she had only refused to lie because custom exacted that a wife should be willing to lie in defense of her husband.  Some obscure strain of dogmatic piety struggled in the convulsed depths of her being, as if she had been suddenly brought up against the vein of iron in her soul—­against the moral law, stripped bare of clustering delusions, which her ancestors had known and fought for as “the Berkeley conscience.”  The Berkeley conscience, bred for centuries on a militant faith, told her now that she was punished because she had lied to her mother.

Then, as if this reversion to primitive theology had been merely an automatic reaction of certain nerve cells, she saw and condemned the childlike superstition.  No, she was not punished so quickly; but she had been a fool, and she was paying the price of her incredible folly.  How little, how pitifully little she knew of the world, after all!  A year ago, on that horrible night, she had thought that her lesson was finished, but it was only beginning.  Her immense, confiding ignorance would lead her into other abysses.  And again, as on the morning after that night of revelation, she resolved passionately that she would not stay a fool always—­that she would not become a victim of life.

The empty bottle had slipped to one side of the crib, and little Frances lay smiling at the friendly universe, with her wet mouth wide open and her blue eyes, so like George’s, sparkling with laughter.  The down on her head, as fine and soft as spun silk, made tiny rings over her pink skull, which was as clear and delicate as an eggshell; and these golden rings filled Gabriella with a tenderness so poignant that it brought tears to her eyes.  Whatever her mother may have thought about the world, it was perfectly obvious that Frances Evelyn considered her part in it remarkably jolly.  To be a well baby in an amiable universe was her ideal of felicity.

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