him, conscience never pricked. Nevertheless,
thus far he had been a clean liver and an honest man.
Vice, because it affronted his sense of the beautiful
and usually led towards death, did not attract him.
He lived too deep in the lap of Nature to be deceived
by the pseudo-realism then making its appearance in
literature, and he laughed without mirth at these
pictures from city-bred pens at that time paraded as
the whole truth of the countryman’s life.
The later school was not then above the horizon; the
brief and filthy spectacle of those who dragged their
necrosis, marasmus, and gangrene of body and mind across
the stage of art and literature, and shrieked Decay,
had not as yet appeared to make men sicken; the plague-spot,
now near healed, had scarce showed the faintest angry
symptom of coming ill. Hicks might under no circumstances
have been drawn in that direction, for his morbidity
was of a different description. Art to this man
appeared only in what was wholesome; it even embraced
a guide to conduct, for it led him directly to Nature,
and Nature emphatically taught him the value of obedience,
the punishment of weakness, the reward for excess
and every form of self-indulgence. But a softness
in him shrank from these aspects of the Mother.
He tried vainly and feebly to dig some rule of life
from her smiles alone, to read a sermon into her happy
hours of high summer sunshine. Beauty was his
dream; he possessed natural taste, and had cultivated
the same without judgment. His intricate disposition
and extreme sensitiveness frightened him away from
much effort at self-expression; yet not a few trifling
scraps and shreds of lyric poetry had fallen from his
pen in high moments. These, when the mood changed,
he read again, and found dead, and usually destroyed.
He was more easily discouraged than a child who sets
out to tell its parent a story, and is all silence
and shamefaced blushes at the first whisper of laughter
or semblance of a smile. The works of poets dazed
him, disheartened him, and secret ambitions toward
performance grew dimmer with every book he laid his
hands on. Ambition to create began to die; the
dream scenery of his ill-controlled mental life more
and more seldom took shape of words on paper; and there
came a time when thought grew wholly wordless for
him; a mere personal pleasure, selfish, useless, unsubstantial
as the glimmer of mirage over desert sands.
Into this futile life came Chris, like a breath of sweet air from off the deep sea. She lifted him clean out of his subjective existence, awoke a healthy, natural love, built on the ordinary emotions of humanity, galvanised self-respect and ambition into some activity, and presently inspired a pluck strong enough to propose marriage. That was two years ago; and the girl still loved this weakly soul with all her heart, found his language unlike that of any other man she had seen or heard, and even took some slight softening edge of culture into herself from him. Her common