The only respite he allowed himself was the time devoted
to correspondence with his wife. He sent her
minute accounts of his work, and received long and
loving letters in return. But time passed, like
the Northers themselves. Four, five, six weeks
were gone almost before he had counted them, extending
his absence decidedly beyond the date he had originally
set for his return, and still there was much to be
done. He had not borne the separation from his
wife without pain, and he looked forward to prolonging
it with much more than reluctance; but he felt that
to leave now would be to spurn the hand of Providence,
the more so because, though Ellen had many times anxiously
inquired for the date of his return, she had never
failed, whenever she wrote, to assure him of her own
content so long as he was successful and happy.
He therefore sent her an elaborate statement of the
situation, reiterated his readiness to return if she
desired it, and begged her to decide for him whether
he should remain longer or not. Why could she
not come down and spend a few weeks at Waco? he asked.
She would find pleasant people there, and he could
then see her at least once in a while. He would
go back to St. Louis to bring her down. In any
event, he said, he would run up and spend a day or
two with her if his stay were to be prolonged.
She wrote in reply that she dreaded to experience
the wild life he had so graphically described, and
that she could not persuade herself to go down into
that primitive country unless she might be with him
always. This she knew to be impossible; and she
was convinced also that her presence at any time would
prove a hinderance to him in his business. But
if he could come home for a short visit it would make
her very happy. She hoped that he might come very
soon indeed. Still, she added, with her old bravery,
he must make no sacrifice to gratify her wishes.
She trusted him implicitly; she knew that he was as
impatient to return as she was that he should do so.
He must stay as long as he deemed it best; and even
his proposed visit must be given up, if need be.
And so Edward stayed. The visit to St. Louis
was postponed once or twice, and then put off indefinitely.
New commissions were intrusted to him, new opportunities
disclosed themselves, new schemes were projected.
He extended his field of work into remote sections
of the State, and once made his way as far as the
valley of the Rio Grande. Even in his busiest
moments Ellen was never wholly absent from his thoughts,
and he never ended a day without the reflection that
his return was so much the nearer. But week followed
week into the past, the holidays slipped by, and spring
itself overtook him before he could see any definite
prospect of getting away. At last, one morning
early in March, he wrote to Ellen from Denison that
he should be at home before the end of a week.
The letter had hardly been mailed when he received
one from his wife evincing a depression she had never
permitted herself to acknowledge before. She wrote
briefly, and, with vague allusions to her health and
an avowal of what she called her “lack of firmness,”
besought him to return.