I was really sleeping—at least I could
not stir myself. I saw you sitting at my bedside
for a long time, your eyes steadfastly fixed upon
me, and I felt your glances playing upon my face like
sunbeams. At last your eyes grew weary, and
I perceived the great tears falling from them.
You held your face in your hands, and loudly sobbed:
Marie, Marie! Ah, my dear Hofrath, our young
friend has never done that, and yet you have sent him
away.’ As I thus talked with him, half
in jest and half in earnest, as I always speak, I
perceived that I had hurt the old man’s feelings.
He became perfectly silent, and blushed like a child.
Then I took the volume of Wordsworth’s poems
which I had been reading, and said: ’Here
is another old man whom I love, and love with my whole
heart, who understands me, and whom I understand,
and yet I have never seen him, and shall never see
him on earth, since it is so to be. Now I will
read you one of his poems, that you may see how one
can love, and that love is a silent benediction which
the lover lays upon the head of the beloved, and then
goes on his way in rapturous sorrow.’ Then
I read to him Wordsworth’s ‘Highland Girl;’
and now, my friend, place the lamp nearer, and read
the poem to me, for it refreshes me every time I hear
it. A spirit breathes through it like the silent,
everlasting evening-red, which stretches its arms
in love and blessing over the pure breast of the snow-covered
mountains.”
As her words thus gradually and peacefully filled
my soul, it at last grew still and solemn in my breast
again; the storm was over, and her image floated like
the silvery moonlight upon the gently rippling waves
of my love—this world-sea which rolls through
the hearts of all men, and which each calls his own
while it is an all-animating pulse-beat of the whole
human race. I would most gladly have kept silent
like Nature as it lay before our view without, and
ever grew stiller and darker: But she gave me
the book, and I read:
Sweet Highland Girl, a very shower
Of beauty is thy earthly dower!
Twice seven consenting years have shed
Their utmost bounty on thy head:
And these gray rocks, that household lawn,
Those trees, a veil just half withdrawn,
This fall of water that doth make
A murmur near the silent lake,
This little bay; a quiet road
That holds in shelter thy abode—
In truth, together do ye seem
Like something fashioned in a dream;
Such forms as from their covert peep
When earthly cares are laid asleep!
But, O fair creature! in the light
Of common day, so heavenly bright,
I bless thee, vision as thou art,
I bless thee with a human heart;
God shield thee to thy latest years!
Thee neither know I, nor thy peers;
And yet my eyes are filled with tears.