he knows, and is sorry.’ It was make-believe,—for
you thought that I was happy, did you not?—but
it helped me very much. I was only a child, you
know, and I was so very lonely. I could not think
of mother and Molly, for when I did I saw them as—as
I had seen them last. The dark scared me, until
I found that I could pretend that you were holding
my hand, as you used to do when night came in the
valley. After a while I had only to put out my
hand, and yours was there waiting for it. I hope
that you can understand—I want you to know
how large is my debt.... As I grew, so did the
debt. When I was a girl it was larger than when
I was a child. Do you know with whom I have lived
all these years? There is the minister, who comes
reeling home from the crossroads ordinary, who swears
over the dice, who teaches cunning that he calls wisdom,
laughs at man and scarce believes in God. His
hand is heavy; this is his mark.” She held
up her bruised wrist to the light, then let the hand
drop. When she spoke of the minister, she made
a gesture toward the shadows growing ever thicker
and darker in the body of the house. It was as
though she saw him there, and was pointing him out.
“There is the minister’s wife,” she
said, and the motion of her hand again accused the
shadows. “Oh, their roof has sheltered me;
I have eaten of their bread. But truth is truth.
There is the schoolmaster with the branded hands.
He taught me, you know. There is”—she
was looking with wide eyes into the deepest of the
shadows—“there is Hugon!” Her
voice died away. Haward did not move or speak,
and for a minute there was silence in the dusky playhouse.
Audrey broke it with a laugh, soft, light, and clear,
that came oddly upon the mood of the hour. Presently
she was speaking again: “Do you think it
strange that I should laugh? I laughed to think
I have escaped them all. Do you know that they
call me a dreamer? Once, deep in the woods, I
met the witch who lives at the head of the creek.
She told me that I was a dream child, and that all
my life was a dream, and I must pray never to awake;
but I do not think she knew, for all that she is a
witch. They none of them know,—none,
none! If I had not dreamed, as they call it,—if
I had watched, and listened, and laid to heart, and
become like them,—oh, then I should have
died of your look when at last you came! But
I ‘dreamed;’ and in that long dream you,
though you were overseas, you showed me, little by
little, that the spirit is not bond, but free,—that
it can walk the waves, and climb to the sunset and
the stars. And I found that the woods were fair,
that the earth was fair and kind as when I was a little
child. And I grew to love and long for goodness.
And, day by day, I have had a life and a world where
flowers bloomed, and the streams ran fresh, and there
was bread indeed to eat. And it was you that
showed me the road, that opened for me the gates!”
She ceased to speak, and, turning fully toward him, took his hand and put it to her lips. “May you be very happy!” she said. “I thank you, sir, that when you came at last you did not break my dream. The dream fell short!”