She began now to live through that yesterday morning deliberately again, forcing herself to dwell on every detail and its possible meaning.  Was she alone in that scene?  Was it her event only?  She forced herself to think of it as bound up with another woman’s life—­a woman towards whom she had set out with a longing to carry some clearness and comfort into her beclouded youth.  In her first outleap of jealous indignation and disgust, when quitting the hateful room, she had flung away all the mercy with which she had undertaken that visit.  She had enveloped both Will and Rosamond in her burning scorn, and it seemed to her as if Rosamond were burned out of her sight forever.  But that base prompting which makes a women more cruel to a rival than to a faithless lover, could have no strength of recurrence in Dorothea when the dominant spirit of justice within her had once overcome the tumult and had once shown her the truer measure of things.  All the active thought with which she had before been representing to herself the trials of Lydgate’s lot, and this young marriage union which, like her own, seemed to have its hidden as well as evident troubles—­ all this vivid sympathetic experience returned to her now as a power:  it asserted itself as acquired knowledge asserts itself and will not let us see as we saw in the day of our ignorance.  She said to her own irremediable grief, that it should make her more helpful, instead of driving her back from effort.

And what sort of crisis might not this be in three lives whose contact with hers laid an obligation on her as if they had been suppliants bearing the sacred branch?  The objects of her rescue were not to be sought out by her fancy:  they were chosen for her.  She yearned towards the perfect Right, that it might make a throne within her, and rule her errant will.  “What should I do—­ how should I act now, this very day, if I could clutch my own pain, and compel it to silence, and think of those three?”

It had taken long for her to come to that question, and there was light piercing into the room.  She opened her curtains, and looked out towards the bit of road that lay in view, with fields beyond outside the entrance-gates.  On the road there was a man with a bundle on his back and a woman carrying her baby; in the field she could see figures moving—­perhaps the shepherd with his dog.  Far off in the bending sky was the pearly light; and she felt the largeness of the world and the manifold wakings of men to labor and endurance.  She was a part of that involuntary, palpitating life, and could neither look out on it from her luxurious shelter as a mere spectator, nor hide her eyes in selfish complaining.

What she would resolve to do that day did not yet seem quite clear, but something that she could achieve stirred her as with an approaching murmur which would soon gather distinctness.  She took off the clothes which seemed to have some of the weariness of a hard watching in them, and began to make her toilet.  Presently she rang for Tantripp, who came in her dressing-gown.