she seemed to regard as if it were hers alone.  He was always to her a being apart, doing what she objected to.  He started from his chair with an angry impulse, and thrusting his hands in his pockets, walked up and down the room.  There was an underlying consciousness all the while that he should have to master this anger, and tell her everything, and convince her of the facts.  For he had almost learned the lesson that he must bend himself to her nature, and that because she came short in her sympathy, he must give the more.  Soon he recurred to his intention of opening himself:  the occasion must not be lost.  If he could bring her to feel with some solemnity that here was a slander which must be met and not run away from, and that the whole trouble had come out of his desperate want of money, it would be a moment for urging powerfully on her that they should be one in the resolve to do with as little money as possible, so that they might weather the bad time and keep themselves independent.  He would mention the definite measures which he desired to take, and win her to a willing spirit.  He was bound to try this—­and what else was there for him to do?

He did not know how long he had been walking uneasily backwards and forwards, but Rosamond felt that it was long, and wished that he would sit down.  She too had begun to think this an opportunity for urging on Tertius what he ought to do.  Whatever might be the truth about all this misery, there was one dread which asserted itself.

Lydgate at last seated himself, not in his usual chair, but in one nearer to Rosamond, leaning aside in it towards her, and looking at her gravely before he reopened the sad subject.  He had conquered himself so far, and was about to speak with a sense of solemnity, as on an occasion which was not to be repeated.  He had even opened his lips, when Rosamond, letting her hands fall, looked at him and said—­

“Surely, Tertius—­”

“Well?”

“Surely now at last you have given up the idea of staying in Middlemarch.  I cannot go on living here.  Let us go to London.  Papa, and every one else, says you had better go.  Whatever misery I have to put up with, it will be easier away from here.”

Lydgate felt miserably jarred.  Instead of that critical outpouring for which he had prepared himself with effort, here was the old round to be gone through again.  He could not bear it.  With a quick change of countenance he rose and went out of the room.

Perhaps if he had been strong enough to persist in his determination to be the more because she was less, that evening might have had a better issue.  If his energy could have borne down that check, he might still have wrought on Rosamond’s vision and will.  We cannot be sure that any natures, however inflexible or peculiar, will resist this effect from a more massive being than their own.  They may be taken by storm and for the moment converted, becoming part of the soul which enwraps them in the ardor of its movement.  But poor Lydgate had a throbbing pain within him, and his energy had fallen short of its task.