Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

“Dear!” with the lingering utterance which affection gives to the word.  Rosamond too was still under the power of that same past, and her husband was still in part the Lydgate whose approval had stirred delight.  She put his hair lightly away from his forehead, then laid her other hand on his, and was conscious of forgiving him.

“I am obliged to tell you what will hurt you, Rosy.  But there are things which husband and wife must think of together.  I dare say it has occurred to you already that I am short of money.”

Lydgate paused; but Rosamond turned her neck and looked at a vase on the mantel-piece.

“I was not able to pay for all the things we had to get before we were married, and there have been expenses since which I have been obliged to meet.  The consequence is, there is a large debt at Brassing—­three hundred and eighty pounds—­which has been pressing on me a good while, and in fact we are getting deeper every day, for people don’t pay me the faster because others want the money.  I took pains to keep it from you while you were not well; but now we must think together about it, and you must help me.”

“What can—­I—­do, Tertius?” said Rosamond, turning her eyes on him again.  That little speech of four words, like so many others in all languages, is capable by varied vocal inflections of expressing all states of mind from helpless dimness to exhaustive argumentative perception, from the completest self-devoting fellowship to the most neutral aloofness.  Rosamond’s thin utterance threw into the words “What can—­I—­do!” as much neutrality as they could hold.  They fell like a mortal chill on Lydgate’s roused tenderness.  He did not storm in indignation—­ he felt too sad a sinking of the heart.  And when he spoke again it was more in the tone of a man who forces himself to fulfil a task.

“It is necessary for you to know, because I have to give security for a time, and a man must come to make an inventory of the furniture.”

Rosamond colored deeply.  “Have you not asked papa for money?” she said, as soon as she could speak.

“No.”

“Then I must ask him!” she said, releasing her hands from Lydgate’s, and rising to stand at two yards’ distance from him.

“No, Rosy,” said Lydgate, decisively.  “It is too late to do that.  The inventory will be begun to-morrow.  Remember it is a mere security:  it will make no difference:  it is a temporary affair.  I insist upon it that your father shall not know, unless I choose to tell him,” added Lydgate, with a more peremptory emphasis.

This certainly was unkind, but Rosamond had thrown him back on evil expectation as to what she would do in the way of quiet steady disobedience.  The unkindness seemed unpardonable to her:  she was not given to weeping and disliked it, but now her chin and lips began to tremble and the tears welled up.  Perhaps it was not possible for Lydgate, under the double stress of outward material difficulty

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