Such, my dear Miss Brooke, is the accurate statement
of my feelings; and I rely on your kind indulgence
in venturing now to ask you how far your own are of
a nature to confirm my happy presentiment. To
be accepted by you as your husband and the earthly
guardian of your welfare, I should regard as the highest
of providential gifts. In return I can at least
offer you an affection hitherto unwasted, and the
faithful consecration of a life which, however short
in the sequel, has no backward pages whereon, if you
choose to turn them, you will find records such as
might justly cause you either bitterness or shame.
I await the expression of your sentiments with an
anxiety which it would be the part of wisdom (were
it possible) to divert by a more arduous labor than
usual. But in this order of experience I am still
young, and in looking forward to an unfavorable possibility
I cannot but feel that resignation to solitude will
be more difficult after the temporary illumination
of hope.
In
any case, I shall remain,
Yours
with sincere devotion,
Edward
casaubon.
Dorothea trembled while she read this letter; then she fell on her knees, buried her face, and sobbed. She could not pray: under the rush of solemn emotion in which thoughts became vague and images floated uncertainly, she could but cast herself, with a childlike sense of reclining, in the lap of a divine consciousness which sustained her own. She remained in that attitude till it was time to dress for dinner.