Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

Middlemarch eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,180 pages of information about Middlemarch.

“If I can only see my boy strong again,” she said, in her loving folly; “and who knows?—­perhaps master of Stone Court! and he can marry anybody he likes then.”

“Not if they won’t have me, mother,” said Fred. The illness had made him childish, and tears came as he spoke.

“Oh, take a bit of jelly, my dear,” said Mrs. Vincy, secretly incredulous of any such refusal.

She never left Fred’s side when her husband was not in the house, and thus Rosamond was in the unusual position of being much alone.  Lydgate, naturally, never thought of staying long with her, yet it seemed that the brief impersonal conversations they had together were creating that peculiar intimacy which consists in shyness.  They were obliged to look at each other in speaking, and somehow the looking could not be carried through as the matter of course which it really was.  Lydgate began to feel this sort of consciousness unpleasant and one day looked down, or anywhere, like an ill-worked puppet.  But this turned out badly:  the next day, Rosamond looked down, and the consequence was that when their eyes met again, both were more conscious than before.  There was no help for this in science, and as Lydgate did not want to flirt, there seemed to be no help for it in folly.  It was therefore a relief when neighbors no longer considered the house in quarantine, and when the chances of seeing Rosamond alone were very much reduced.

But that intimacy of mutual embarrassment, in which each feels that the other is feeling something, having once existed, its effect is not to be done away with.  Talk about the weather and other well-bred topics is apt to seem a hollow device, and behavior can hardly become easy unless it frankly recognizes a mutual fascination—­which of course need not mean anything deep or serious.  This was the way in which Rosamond and Lydgate slid gracefully into ease, and made their intercourse lively again.  Visitors came and went as usual, there was once more music in the drawing-room, and all the extra hospitality of Mr. Vincy’s mayoralty returned.  Lydgate, whenever he could, took his seat by Rosamond’s side, and lingered to hear her music, calling himself her captive—­meaning, all the while, not to be her captive.  The preposterousness of the notion that he could at once set up a satisfactory establishment as a married man was a sufficient guarantee against danger.  This play at being a little in love was agreeable, and did not interfere with graver pursuits.  Flirtation, after all, was not necessarily a singeing process.  Rosamond, for her part, had never enjoyed the days so much in her life before:  she was sure of being admired by some one worth captivating, and she did not distinguish flirtation from love, either in herself or in another.  She seemed to be sailing with a fair wind just whither she would go, and her thoughts were much occupied with a handsome house in Lowick Gate which she hoped would by-and-by be vacant.  She was quite determined, when she was married, to rid herself adroitly of all the visitors who were not agreeable to her at her father’s; and she imagined the drawing-room in her favorite house with various styles of furniture.

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