a curious exalted sense of double life.  She could not talk about it at all, but she could slip out into the wet streets on a gusty October evening, and walk miles exulting in it, and in the light on the puddles and in the rain on her face, coming back, it must be admitted, with red cheeks and an excellent appetite.  It led her into strange absent silences and ways of liking to be alone, which gratified her mother and worried her father.  When Elfrida burned the gas of Sparta late in her own room, it was always her father who saw the light under the door, and who came and knocked and told her that it was after eleven, and high time she was in bed.  Mrs. Bell usually protested.  “How can the child reach any true development,” she asked, “if you interfere with her like this?” to which Mr. Bell usually replied that whatever she developed, he didn’t want it to be headaches and hysteria.  Elfrida invariably answered, “Yes, papa,” with complete docility; but it must be said that Mr. Bell generally knocked in vain, and the more perfect the submission of the daughterly reply the later the gas would be apt to burn.  Elfrida was always agreeable to her father.  So far as she thought of it she was appreciatively fond of him, but the relation pleased her, it was one that could be so charmingly sustained.  For already out of the other world she walked in—­the world of strange kinships and insights and recognitions, where she saw truth afar off and worshipped, and as often met falsehood in the way and turned raptly to follow—­the girl had drawn a vague and many-shaped idea of artistic living which embraced the filial attitude among others less explicable.  It gave her pleasure to do certain things in certain ways.  She stood and sat and spoke, and even thought, at times, with a subtle approval and enjoyment of her manner of doing it.  It was not actual artistic achievement, but it was the sort of thing that entered her imagination, as such achievement’s natural corollary.  Her self-consciousness was a supreme fact of her personality; it began earlier than any date she could remember, and it was a channel of the most unfailing and intense satisfaction to her from many sources.  One was her beauty, for she had developed an elusive beauty that served her moods.  When she was dull she called herself ugly—­unfairly, though her face lost tremendously in value then—­and her general dislike of dullness and ugliness became particular and acute in connection with herself.  It is not too much to say that she took a keen enjoying pleasure in the flush upon her own cheek and the light in her own eyes no less than in the inward sparkle that provoked it—­an honest delight, she would not have minded confessing it.  Her height, her symmetry, her perfect abounding health were separate joys to her; she found absorbing and critical interest in the very figment of her being.  It was entirely preposterous that a young woman should kneel at an attic window in a flood of spring moonlight, with,