from my sister in half-an-hour, and rode off in the
direction of Carrick-on-Suir, where I was certain Mr.
O’Brien would direct his way, whether he came
alone or followed by his countrymen in arms.
’Mid the lone silence of that journey, while
there was leisure to revolve all the difficulties
and hazards of the future, the idea never once occurred
to me that, supposing my information correct, the step
was rashly taken. On such occasions, when centuries
gather into moments, some one overmastering feeling,
hope or passion absorbs and controls the whole understanding.
That which was then present to my mind, and occupied
all its faculties, was the hope of satisfaction, or
vengeance, if you will, for so many ages of guilty
tyranny. The tears, the burning and blood of
nearly one thousand years seemed to letter the eastern
sky, as day dawned upon my way. Apprehension,
I had none. From earliest childhood to that hour,
I never met one Irishman whose hope of hope it was
not to deliver the country forever from English thrall.
I had lived amidst all ranks (at least in their characters
of politicians), had known the sentiments of all,
from the most ignorant peasant to the very highest
official of government; and then or now, I would find
it difficult to say where hatred to English domination—English
power in Ireland is neither government nor dominion—reigned
the most intensely. Some men there are by nature
cowards, and they would shrink from the perils of
national deliverance; but if any sentiment could be
said to live in natures so grovelling, the grudge
against England, even though too craven to make itself
audible, constitutes the essence of their mental vitality.
Some there are, too, so selfish as to sell their own
and their families’ honour for gold; but as they
count their sordid gains, if they fall short by a
scruple, whether in fact or in anticipation, the deficiency
becomes a heap of hoarded spite against England.
One man of that class, whom I had known, will furnish
a conclusive example. Trusted and paid by the
Whigs, he was a supreme West Briton, who saw in his
country but a prey for meaner cormorants; distrusted
and dismissed by the Tories, he would storm the Castle,
even with the baton of the English office from which,
he had been discarded. Others, also, of a loftier
stamp, were reined in, in the path of allegiance[B],
by considerations more justifiable, yet more or less
cowardly in character.
[Illustration: Ballingarry, Slievenamon in the distance, 1848]
Some doubted the ability of their country to effect her redemption. Some doubted the capacity, and perhaps the sincerity, of the chiefs. Some were schooled in duplicity, and under the ermine, or under the privy councillor’s robe, carried fierce hearts, benumbed by mendicancy and seared by shame. But the first flash of their country’s liberty would see them ranged at that country’s side, repaying with the fiercest hate the beggar crumbs which England had flung from the fragments of her