They were, it may be well conceived, not of the gayest character. The responsibility and hazards of the attempt before me, narrowed the chances of my destiny to the one alternative, and I could not shake off gloomy phantoms which represented every phase of the last bloody drama which was to close the career of those who loved, too dearly, our ill-fated land. But, come what might, my purpose was definitely fixed. I spent the evening in the deepest gloom, which I endeavoured to dissipate by composing the following stanzas, suggested at the time by involuntary visions of my wife and children at the foot of the gallows:—
THE OUTLAW’S WIFE
Sadly silent she sits, with
her head on her hand,
While she prays,
in her heart, to the Ruler above,
To protect, and to guide to
some happier land,
The joy of her
soul and the spouse of her love:
And she marks by her pulses,
so wild in their play,
The slow progress
of time, as it straggles along;
And she lists to the wind,
as ’tis moaning away,
And she deems
it the chaunt of some funeral song.
Then anon does she start in
her struggles with fear,
And she strains
at the whispers of every one round,
While she brushes away, half
indignant, the tear,
That will gush,
tho’ unbidden, at every fresh sound;
And she strives to conceal—oh!
how idle the task—
The deep lines
in her cheek, and the rent in her heart;
But her neighbours grow pale
as they gaze on the mask,
And more lowly
and slowly they talk, as they part.
When her babes are at rest
will she breathe to their breath,
And keep vigil,
how wistfully, over their sleep,
As it mirrors, poor mourner,
the stillness of death,
And she stirs
them, and calls, for she deems it too deep;
But again does she hush them,
first telling them pray,
Till at length
overcharged by the tears yet unshed,
Will she sink, and as consciousness
passes away,
O’er her
pale furrowed cheek, see the hectic o’erspread.
Slowly thus, day by day, does
the fever-fire trace
Its incessant
course down her fast-withering cheek,
Till the smile that made light
in the glow of her face,
But the faint,
fading glimpses of vigour bespeak,
And her reason will fitfully
pass into night—
Into night even
deeper than that of the blind,
As the shade of the gibbet-tree
looms in her sight.
And she fancies
a death-scream in th’ echoing wind.