of grass for pillows: With these accommodations
they hoped to pass a better night than the last, especially
as, to their great comfort, not a musquito was to be
seen. Here then they lay down, and, such is the
force of habit, they resigned themselves to sleep,
without once reflecting upon the probability and danger
of being found by the Indians in that situation.
If this appears strange, let us for a moment reflect,
that every danger, and every calamity, after a time
becomes familiar, and loses its effect upon the mind.
If it were possible that a man should first be made
acquainted with his mortality, or even with the inevitable
debility and infirmities of old age, when his understanding
had arrived at its full strength, and life was endeared
by the enjoyments of youth, and vigour, and health,
with what an agony of terror and distress would the
intelligence be received! yet, being gradually acquainted
with these mournful truths, by insensible degrees,
we scarce know when, they lose all their force, and
we think no more of the approach of old age and death,
than these wanderers of an unknown desert did of a
less obvious and certain evil, the approach of the
native savages, at a time when they must have fallen
an easy prey to their malice or their fears. And
it is remarkable, that the greater part of those who
have been condemned to suffer a violent death, have
slept the night immediately preceding their execution,
though there is perhaps no instance of a person accused
of a capital crime having slept the first night of
his confinement. Thus is the evil of life in
some degree a remedy for itself, and though every man
at twenty deprecates fourscore, almost every man is
as tenacious of life at fourscore as at twenty; and
if he does not suffer under any painful disorder,
loses as little of the comforts that remain by reflecting
that he is upon the brink of the grave, where the
earth already crumbles under his feet, as he did of
the pleasures of his better days, when his dissolution,
though certain, was supposed to be at a distance.[84]
[Footnote 84: The reader will receive this hypothetical
statement as he finds it agreeable, or not, to his
own experience,—a better guide, in all
probability, than mere philosophy. The writer
has his doubts upon the subject. But let every
one judge for himself. For his part, he is convinced
that frequent contemplation of death, though it certainly
aids the mind in reasoning about it, does not lessen
the apprehension of it, but the reverse: so that,
did not some peculiar principle come to his
aid, and seem indeed to acquire continually more clearness
and efficiency, his distress or uneasy feeling would
be much heightened by the exercise. But he sees
no reason either to expect, or to wish, that it may
be ever otherwise with him; for he is persuaded, that
much of man’s dignity and welfare consists in
his seeing things just as they are, without any disguise
or delusion; and that whatever death really is, there