desire to hear of, your welfare. God be
thanked, you still entertain such an opinion of
me as I will flatter myself I have deserved; but why
do I say so? can I make myself too worthy the
affectionate praises of such amiable sisters?
Oh! my Nessy, it grieves me to think I must be
under the necessity, however heart-breaking to myself,
of desiring you will relinquish your most affectionate
design of coming to see me; it is too long and
tedious a journey, and even on your arrival,
you would not be allowed the wished-for happiness,
both to you and myself, of seeing, much less
conversing with, your unfortunate brother: the
rules of the service are so strict, that prisoners
are not permitted to have any communication with
female relations; thus even the sight of, and
conversation with, so truly affectionate a sister
is for the present denied me! The happiness
of such an interview let us defer till a time (which,
please God, will arrive) when it can be enjoyed with
more freedom, and unobserved by the gazing eyes
of an inquisitive world, which in my present
place of confinement would of course not be the
case.
’I am very happy
to hear that poor old Birket is still alive;
remember me to her,
and tell her not to heave aback, until
God grants me the pleasure
of seeing her.
’And now, my dear Nessy, cease to anticipate the happiness of personal communication with your poor, but resigned brother, until wished-for freedom removes the indignant shackles I now bear, from the feet of your fond and most affectionate brother, P.H.’
In a subsequent letter to his sister, he says, ’Let us at present be resigned to our fate, contented with this sort of communication, and be thankful to God for having even allowed us that happiness—for be assured the present confinement is liberty, compared with what it has been for the fifteen months last past.’ On the 15th July, Commodore Pasley addresses the following business-like letter to Miss Heywood.
’I received your letter, my dearest Nessy, with the enclosure [her brother’s narrative], but did not choose to answer it until I had made a thorough investigation; that is, seen personally all the principal evidences, which has ever since occupied my whole thoughts and time. I have also had some letters from himself; and notwithstanding he must still continue in confinement, every attention and indulgence possible is granted him by Captain Montague of the Hector, who is my particular friend. I have no doubt of the truth of your brother’s narrative; the master, boatswain, gunner, and carpenter, late of the Bounty, I have seen, and have the pleasure to assure you that they are all favourable, and corroborate what he says. That fellow, Captain Edwards, whose inhuman rigour of confinement I shall never forget, I have likewise seen; he cannot deny that Peter avowed himself late of the Bounty when he came voluntarily aboard;