of yams, he asked me what I intended to do?  I told him, to remain in the ship.  Now this answer, I imagine, he has told Mr, Bligh I made to him; from which, together with my not speaking to him that morning, his suspicions of me have arisen, construing my conduct into what is foreign to my nature.

’Thus, my dearest mother, it was all owing to my youth and unadvised inexperience, but has been interpreted into villany and disregard of my country’s laws, the ill effects of which I at present, and still am to, labour under for some months longer.  And now, after what I have asserted, I may still once more retrieve my injured reputation, be again reinstated in the affection and favour of the most tender of mothers, and be still considered as her ever dutiful son.

’I was not undeceived in my erroneous decision till too late, which was after the captain was in the launch; for while I was talking to the master-at-arms, one of the ringleaders in the affair, my other messmate whom I had left in his hammock in the berth (Mr. Stewart), came up to me, and asked me, if I was not going in the launch?  I replied, No—­upon which he told me not to think of such a thing as remaining behind, but take his advice and go down below with him to get a few necessary things, and make haste to go with him into the launch; adding that, by remaining in the ship, I should incur an equal share of guilt with the mutineers themselves.  I reluctantly followed his advice—­I say reluctantly, because I knew no better, and was foolish; and the boat swimming very deep in the water—­the land being far distant—­the thoughts of being sacrificed by the natives—­and the self-consciousness of my first intention being just—­all these considerations almost staggered my resolution; however, I preferred my companion’s judgement to my own, and we both jumped down the main-hatchway to prepare ourselves for the boat—­but, no sooner were we in the berth, than the master-at-arms ordered the sentry to keep us both in the berth till he should receive orders to release us.  We desired the master-at-arms to acquaint Mr. Bligh of our intention, which we had reason to think he never did, nor were we permitted to come on deck until the launch was a long way astern.  I now, when too late, saw my error.

’At the latter end of May, we got to an island to the southward of Taheite, called Tooboui, where they intended to make a settlement, but finding no stock there of any kind, they agreed to go to Taheite, and, after procuring hogs and fowls, to return to Tooboui and remain.  So, on the 6th June, we arrived at Taheite, where I was in hopes I might find an opportunity of running away, and remaining on shore, but I could not effect it, as there was always too good a look-out kept to prevent any such steps being taken.  And besides, they had all sworn that should any one make his escape, they would force the natives to restore him, and would then shoot him as an