“Be quick about it!” said Mr. Dudley.  “I am like the Sultan who cut off his wives’ heads because they would not tell him stories fast enough.  It is not convenient for me to wait.”

To Esther this evening was the last when the stars shone bright and clear.  The next morning her glimpse of blue sky had vanished and the rigor of the storm began.

She was waked by the news that in the night her father had been seized by another paroxysm, and that although better, he was excessively weak.  He had forbidden his attendants to call her, on the cool calculation that he should probably pull through this attack, and that she would need all her strength for the next.  When Esther came down to his room, she found him in a state of complete prostration, so that his doctors had forbidden him to speak or even to listen.  They no longer talked with him, but gave their orders to her, and she took charge of the sick-room at once with all its responsibilities and fatigues.  After a consultation of very few moments, the physicians told her plainly that there was no hope; her father might linger a short time, but any sudden emotion would kill him on the spot.

During the day he rallied a little and in the evening was stronger.  Esther, who had been all day in his room, rested till midnight and then took her regular watch by his side.  She knew that there was no hope and that her father himself was only anxious for the end, yet to see him suffer and slowly fade out was terrible.  At such moments, tears are forbidden.  Esther had been told that she must not give way to agitation, under the risk of killing her father, who lay dozing, half-conscious, with his face turned towards her.  Whenever his eyes opened they rested on hers.  In the dim light she watched his motions, and it seemed to her that he was also watching hers.  She wondered whether he could feel stronger because she was near him.  Was he afraid?  He, who had never to her knowledge shrunk from any danger, and who in the army had shown reckless indifference even when he supposed his wounds to be mortal, was now watching her as though he feared to have her leave his side.  In his extreme weakness, unable to lift his head, his mind evidently beginning to wander, perhaps he felt the need of her companionship, and dreaded solitude and death as she did.  For half the night she pondered over this weakening of the will in the face of omnipotence crushing out the last spark of life, and was doubly startled when, the nurse coming to relieve her at six o’clock, she leaned over to kiss her father’s forehead and found him looking at her in his old humorous way, while, in a low whisper, speaking slowly, as though he would not yield to the enemy that clutched his heart, he said: 

“It’s not so bad, Esther, when you come to it.”

The tears started into Esther’s eyes.  It was only with an effort more violent than she had thought was in her power, that she forced herself to smile.  Now that she had come to it, she thought it was very bad; worse than any thing she had ever imagined; she wanted to escape, to run away, to get out of life itself, rather than suffer such pain, such terror, such misery of helplessness; but after an instant’s pause, her father whispered again, though his voice died away in weakness: