The Voyage Out eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 517 pages of information about The Voyage Out.

The Voyage Out eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 517 pages of information about The Voyage Out.

“It’s no laughing matter for me, I assure you,” he protested.  “My mother’s a chronic invalid, and I’m always expecting to be told that I’ve got heart disease myself.  Rheumatism always goes to the heart in the end.”

“For goodness’ sake, Hirst,” Hewet protested; “one might think you were an old cripple of eighty.  If it comes to that, I had an aunt who died of cancer myself, but I put a bold face on it—­” He rose and began tilting his chair backwards and forwards on its hind legs.  “Is any one here inclined for a walk?” he said.  “There’s a magnificent walk, up behind the house.  You come out on to a cliff and look right down into the sea.  The rocks are all red; you can see them through the water.  The other day I saw a sight that fairly took my breath away—­about twenty jelly-fish, semi-transparent, pink, with long streamers, floating on the top of the waves.”

“Sure they weren’t mermaids?” said Hirst.  “It’s much too hot to climb uphill.”  He looked at Helen, who showed no signs of moving.

“Yes, it’s too hot,” Helen decided.

There was a short silence.

“I’d like to come,” said Rachel.

“But she might have said that anyhow,” Helen thought to herself as Hewet and Rachel went away together, and Helen was left alone with St. John, to St. John’s obvious satisfaction.

He may have been satisfied, but his usual difficulty in deciding that one subject was more deserving of notice than another prevented him from speaking for some time.  He sat staring intently at the head of a dead match, while Helen considered—­so it seemed from the expression of her eyes—­something not closely connected with the present moment.

At last St. John exclaimed, “Damn!  Damn everything!  Damn everybody!” he added.  “At Cambridge there are people to talk to.”

“At Cambridge there are people to talk to,” Helen echoed him, rhythmically and absent-mindedly.  Then she woke up.  “By the way, have you settled what you’re going to do—­is it to be Cambridge or the Bar?”

He pursed his lips, but made no immediate answer, for Helen was still slightly inattentive.  She had been thinking about Rachel and which of the two young men she was likely to fall in love with, and now sitting opposite to Hirst she thought, “He’s ugly.  It’s a pity they’re so ugly.”

She did not include Hewet in this criticism; she was thinking of the clever, honest, interesting young men she knew, of whom Hirst was a good example, and wondering whether it was necessary that thought and scholarship should thus maltreat their bodies, and should thus elevate their minds to a very high tower from which the human race appeared to them like rats and mice squirming on the flat.

“And the future?” she reflected, vaguely envisaging a race of men becoming more and more like Hirst, and a race of women becoming more and more like Rachel.  “Oh no,” she concluded, glancing at him, “one wouldn’t marry you.  Well, then, the future of the race is in the hands of Susan and Arthur; no—­that’s dreadful.  Of farm labourers; no—­not of the English at all, but of Russians and Chinese.”  This train of thought did not satisfy her, and was interrupted by St. John, who began again: 

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