The Inner Shrine eBook

Basil King
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 312 pages of information about The Inner Shrine.

The Inner Shrine eBook

Basil King
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 312 pages of information about The Inner Shrine.

“Of course, Monsieur,” she agreed, “we must let the subject drop, if you have nothing more to say.”

He stood silent a minute, looking at her steadily.  “I’m afraid I haven’t,” he said, then.

“Nor I,” Miss Grimston returned, significantly.

Again there was a minute or two of silence, during which Bienville seemed to probe for the meaning of the two laconic words.  If anything could be read from his countenance, it was doubt as to whether to relinquish the prize with dignity or to pay its price in humiliation.  There was an instant in which he appeared to be bracing himself to do the latter; but when he spoke his interrogation threw the responsibility for decision on Miss Grimston.

“Have I received—­my answer?”

She waited, finding it hard to give him his reply.  It was as if forced to it against her will that her head bent slowly in assent.

“Then,” he said, in a tone of dignified regret, “there’s nothing for me but to wish Mademoiselle good-by.”

He bowed separately to Miss Grimston and to Diane, and, with the self-possession of a man accustomed to the various turns of drawing-room drama, he left the room.

XVII

During the summer that followed these events Derek Pruyn set himself the task of stamping the memory and influence of Diane Eveleth out of his life.  His sense of duty combined with his feelings of self-respect in making the attempt.  In reflecting on his last interview with her, he saw the weakness of the stand he had taken in it, recoiling from so unworthy a position with natural reaction.  To have been in love at all at his age struck him as humiliation enough; but to have been in love with that sort of woman came very near mental malady.  He said “that sort of woman,” because the vagueness of the term gave scope to the bitterness of resentment with which he tried to overwhelm her.  It enabled him to create some such paradise of pain as that into which the souls of Othello and Desdemona might have gone together.  Had he been a Moor of Venice he would doubtless have smothered her with a pillow; but being a New York banker he could only try to slay the image, whose eyes and voice had never haunted him so persistently as now.  In his rage of suffering he was as little able to take a reasoned view of the situation as the maddened bull in the arena to appraise the skill of his tormentors.

When in the middle of May he had retired to Rhinefields it was with the intention of laying waste all that Diane had left behind in the course of her brief passage through his life.  The process being easier in the exterior phases of existence than in those more secret and remote, he determined to work from the outside inward.  Wherever anything reminded him of her, he erased, destroyed, or removed it.  All that she had changed within the house he put back into the state in which it was before she came.  Where he had followed her suggestions about the grounds and gardens he reversed the orders.  Taken as outward and visible signs of the inward and spiritual change he was trying to create within himself, these childish acts gave him a passionate satisfaction.  In a short time, he boasted to himself, he would have obliterated all trace of her presence.

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