is wicked, such completeness of attachment ready for
the woman who is lonely. It is so beautifully
humble upon its throne, abased in its own eyes before
the shrine of its mistress, on whom it depends entirely
for all its happiness. A little king, perhaps,
it has the pretty manners of a little servitor.
And even when it presumes to be determined in the
expressed desire for the dryness of a biscuit or the
warmth of a lap, with how small a word or glance can
it be laid upon its back, in the abject renunciation
of every pretension, anxious only for the forgiveness
that nobody with a touch of tenderness could withhold.
Ah, there is much to be thankful for in a companion
with a tail! Jessie had winning ways, the deep
heart of a dog. A toy dog she was, no doubt,
but hers was no toy nature. Cuckoo could not have
shed such tears as those she now shed over any toy.
For she began to cry weakly at the mere thought that
had come to her, although it was not yet become a
resolve. Life with Jessie had been very sordid,
very sad. What would life be without her?
What would such a morning as this be, for instance?
Cuckoo’s imagination set tempestuously to work,
with physical aids—such as the following.
She drew away her feet from the bottom of the bed,
where they touched the little dog’s back.
Doing this she said to herself, “Now, Jessie
is gone.” Curled up, she set herself to
realize the lie. And perhaps she might have succeeded
thoroughly in the sad attempt had not Jessie, in sleep
missing the contact of her mistress, wriggled lazily
on her side up the bed after Cuckoo’s feet, discovering
which, she again composed herself to slumber.
The renunciation was not to be complete in imagination.
Jessie’s love, when present, was too frustrating.
And Cuckoo, casting away her horrible thought in a
sort of hasty panic, caught her companion with a tail
in her arms, and made her rest beside her, close,
close. Jessie was well content, but still sleepy.
She reposed her tiny head upon the pillow, lengthened
herself between the sheets and dreamed again.
And while she dreamed, the black thought about her
came back to Cuckoo. It was assertive, and Cuckoo
began to fear it. The fear of a thought is a
horrible thing; sometimes it is worse than the fear
of death. This one made Cuckoo think herself more
cruel than any woman since the world began. Yet
she could not exorcise it. On the contrary, she
grew familiar with it as the day marched on, until
it put on a fatal expression of duty. All that
day she revolved it. Mrs. Brigg attacked her
again. Food was lacking. Cuckoo’s case
became desperate. She turned over carefully all
her few remaining possessions to see if there was
any inanimate thing that she had omitted to turn into
money. Jessie, poor innocent, assisted with animation
at the forlorn inventory, nestling among the tumbled
garments, leaping on and off the bed. Her ingenuous
nature supposed some odd game to be in progress, and
was anxious to play a principal and effective part