She slept. But she had wakened her mistress,
who lay with her head resting on one hand, deep in
thought while the day grew outside. Cuckoo, having
directed her steps down a blind-alley had, not unnaturally,
reached a dead-wall, blotting out the horizon.
Lying there, she faced it. She stared at the
wall, and the wall seemed to stare back at her.
Perhaps for that reason a dull blankness flowed over
and filled her mind, and made her widely opened eyes
almost as expressionless as the eyes of a corpse.
For a long time she lay in this alive stupor.
Then Jessie stirred again, and Cuckoo, as she had
been before spurred into wakefulness, was stirred
into thoughtfulness. She began to pass the near
past, the present, eventually the future, in review.
The past was a crescendo, solitude growing louder
each night, poverty growing louder, obstinacy growing
louder, Mrs. Brigg growing louder. What an orchestra!
Cuckoo had not seen Julian once. She had seen
the doctor, to be told of his baffled efforts, of
Julian’s escape from all his friends, of Valentine’s
declaration of the stone going down in the sea, of
utter deadlock, utter stagnation. For the doctor
treated Cuckoo frankly as a brave woman, not deceitfully
as a timid child to be buoyed on the waves of ill-circumstances
with gas-filled bladders. Cuckoo knew the worst
of things, and by the knowledge was confirmed in her
mule’s attitude which so weighed upon Mrs. Brigg.
Her hands were tied in every direction except one.
She could only dumbly prove that Valentine was wrong;
that her will was not dead, by exercising it to the
detriment of her worldly situation. Doggedly
then she put her whole past behind her, despite the
ever-increasing curses of the landlady. She had
given up her pilgrimages in search of honest work.
They were too hopeless. She had pawned everything
she could pawn, and sold every trifle that was saleable.
Even Jessie’s broad band of yellow satin had
been included in a heterogeneous parcel of odds and
ends purchased by a phlegmatic German with eyes like
marbles and the manner of a stone image. Living
less and less well, doing without fires, sitting often
in the dark at night to save the expense of gas, Cuckoo
had managed to pay her rent until a week ago.
Then money had failed, and the great earthquake had
at length tossed and swallowed the wretched Mrs. Brigg.
The scene had been tropical. Mrs. Brigg was really
moved to the very depths of her being. For days
she had been, as it were, eating and drinking apprehension.
Now apprehension choked her. She was shot up
in the air by the cannon of climax. Limbs and
mind were in the extreme of commotion. From her
point of view it must be acknowledged that the situation
was unduly exasperating. For Cuckoo would give
no reason whatever for her reiterated formula of refusal
to earn any money. And now she could not pay
her week’s rent, plunging Mrs. Brigg into the
further circle of an inferno, and yet sat within
doors day after day. Mrs. Brigg approached apoplexy
by way of persuasion, was by turns pathetic and paralytic
with passion. She coaxed with the ardour of an
executioner inveigling the victim’s neck to
the noose and in haste to be off to breakfast.
She threatened like Jove in curl-papers. Cuckoo
was inexorable.