Why had he such amazing points of resemblance to Marr?
Why had the influence of Marr been deliberately intruded
into the calm, happy, and safe lives of Julian and
Valentine? Marr was cruel to dogs, and dogs showed
rage and terror when the new Valentine approached
them. Marr had a hatred, yet a knowledge of music.
The new Valentine, when forced to sing, sang like
some wild, desolate thing, with reluctant and terrible
voice. And at this point the doctor used the curb
suddenly and pulled himself up sharply. He felt
that is was useless, that it was unworthy, to plunge
himself thus in romance, and to hang veils of mystery
around these facts which he had to accept and to deal
with. A touch of humanity is worth all the unhuman
romance in the world. Humanity lay at the doctor’s
gate, sore distressed, sinking to something that was
beyond distress. So, putting his fancies resolutely
behind him, Doctor Levillier resolved to fight through
that frail weapon, the lady of the feathers, the battle
of Julian’s will against the will—which
he now fully and once for all recognized as malign—of
the man he must still call Valentine. Valentine
had said to Julian, at the Savoy, “If it came
to a battle—Cuckoo Bright’s will
against mine!” The doctor had not heard those
words. Yet, under the stars on the doorstep of
Cuckoo’s dwelling he, too, had spoken to the
girl of a fight. Thus he had poured a great ardour
into her heart. The three souls, Cuckoo’s,
Doctor Levillier’s, Valentine’s, were
thus set in battle array. They understood what
they faced, or at least that they faced warfare.
Only Julian did not understand—yet.
He was besotted by the spell of the one he called friend
laid upon him, and by the vices in which he had been
taught to wallow. His brain was clouded and his
eyes were dim, as the brains and eyes of the
malades
imaginaires who carry on the scheme of sin and
sorrow in the world, and prolong by their deeds the
long travail of their race. Julian did not understand.
For now he seldom thought sincerely. Sincere
thoughts and the incessant and violent acts of passion
do not often dwell together.
The progress of Julian towards degradation had now
become so rapid that his many acquaintances talked
of him openly as of one who had practically “gone
under.” Not that he had ever done any of
those few things at which society, whose door is generally
ajar, with Mrs. Grundy’s large ear glued to
the keyhole, resolutely shuts the door. He had
not forged, or stolen a watch, or killed anybody,
or married a grocer’s widow, or anything of
that kind. But he had thrown his life to the pleasures
of the body, and made no secret of the fact.
And the pleasures of the body, like eager rats, had
gnawed away his power of self-control until he could
resist nothing, no wish of the moment, no desire born
illegitimately of passing excitement or the prompting
of wine. So he committed many follies, and his
follies had loud voices. They shrieked and shouted.