Most women have watched some woman slip from the purity
and hope and innocence of girlhood into the faded hunger
and painted and wrinkled energies of animalism.
Such tragedies are no more unfamiliar to us than are
the tragedies of Shakespeare. And such a tragedy—not
complete yet, but at a third-act point, perhaps—now
faced Doctor Levillier in Julian. The wall that
had been so straight and trim, so finely built and
carefully preserved, was crumbling fast to decay.
A ragged youth slunk in the face, beggared of virtue,
of true cheerfulness, of all lofty aspiration and
high intent. It was youth still, for nothing
can entirely massacre that gift of the gods, except
inevitable Time. But it was youth sadder than
age, because it had run forward to meet the wearinesses
that dog the steps of age but that should never be
at home with age’s enemy. Julian had been
the leaping child of healthy energy. He was now
quite obviously the servant of lassitude. His
foot left the ground as if with a tired reluctance,
and his hands were fidgetty, yet nerveless. The
eyes, that looked at the doctor and looked away by
swift turns, burned with a haggard eagerness unutterably
different from their former bright vivacity.
Beneath them wrinkles crept on the puffy white face
as worms about a corpse. Busy and tell-tale, they
did not try to conceal the story of the body into
which they had prematurely cut themselves. Nor
did Julian’s features choose to back up any reserve
his mind might possibly feel about acknowledging the
consummate alteration of his life. They proclaimed,
as from a watch-tower, the arrival of enemies.
The cheeks were no longer firm, but heavy and flaccid.
The mouth was deformed by the down-drawn looseness
of the sensualist, and the complexion beaconed with
an unnatural scarlet that was a story to be read by
every street-boy.
Yet, even so, the doctor, as he looked pitifully and
with a gnawing grief upon Julian, felt not the mysterious
thrill communicated to him by Valentine. These
two men, these old time friends of his, were both in
a sense strangers. But it was as if he had at
least heard much of Julian, knew much of him, understood
him, comprehended exactly why he was a stranger.
Valentine was the total stranger, the unknown, the
undivined. Long ago the doctor had foreseen the
possibility of the Julian who now stood before him.
He had never foreseen the possibility of the new Valentine.
The one change was summed up in an instant. The
other walked in utter mystery. The doctor had
been swift to notice Julian’s furtive glance,
and was equally swift in banishing all trace of surprise
from his own manner. So they met with a fair
show of cordiality, and Julian developed a little
of his old cheerfulness.
“Val’s dressing,” he said.
“Well, there’s plenty of time. By
the way, how’s your Russian, doctor?”
“Better.”
“You’ve cured him! Bravo!”
“I hope I have persuaded him to cure himself.”