After a moment she answered musingly: “I believe you are right. Noah had whipped up the horses, and we must have covered at least a hundred yards or more before I saw Master Hamilton’s face. I fear I have committed a great sin against him, and this day came near committing a greater. I was on the point of answering ‘yes’ to the lawyer’s question, when some motive prompted me to say ‘no,’ and to make false oath. I wish I were dead. I have wronged him cruelly, and you are to blame.”
The last sentence was purely feminine logic, which is always interesting but usually inaccurate.
She began to weep, and I took her hand to soothe her, as I asked gently: “Tell me, Frances. Tell me all your trouble. Speak it out. Let me be your other self. Perhaps I can help you.”
After a long pause she began her pathetic story: “I cannot blind myself to the truth. It is because I cannot stop thinking of him. The creatures that infest this court are but foils to show me that he is a man, even though he be a bad one, while they are mere imitations. I have often heard you say bitingly that women do not hate wickedness in men as they should—”
“I fear it is true,” I interrupted dolefully.
“I suppose it is,” she continued. “And one might go further and say that no woman ever loved a man only because he was good. Too often goodness is but the lack of courage to do wrong or the absence of temptation. If a man has no qualities save goodness to recommend him, I fear he might go his whole life through not knowing a woman’s real love. We are apt to turn from the nauseating innocuousness of the truly good and to thank God for a modicum of interesting sin.”
“I’m sorry to hear this philosophy from you, cousin, for it smacks of bitterness, and I regret to learn that you have not thrown off your love for Hamilton, though I have long suspected the truth.”
“Yes, yes, Ned, the truth, the truth! I, too, am sorry. But it can’t be helped, and I want to tell you all about it,” she said, clasping my arm. “I—I am almost mad about him! The king and the courtiers are harmless. It may be that my love exalts Master Hamilton and debases others by comparison, but it is as I say with me, and I fear it will ever be. He may be bad, but he is strong, brave, and honest. He is a man—all man—and I tell you, Baron Ned, a woman doesn’t look much further when she goes to give her love.”
My eyes were opening rapidly to qualities in my cousin that I had never suspected, so after a moment I asked in alarm:—
“But surely you would not marry Hamilton?”