“Life is very primitive here—­which doesn’t mean that one is getting down to anything fundamental, but only going back to something immediate and simple.  It’s fetching and carrying and getting water and getting food and going up to the firing line and coming back.  One goes on for weeks, and then one day one finds oneself crying out, ’What is all this for?  When is it to end?’ I seemed to have something ahead of me before this war began, education, science, work, discoveries; all sorts of things; but it is hard to feel that there is anything ahead of us here....

“Somehow the last spell in the fire trench has shaken up my mind a lot.  I was getting used to the war before, but now I’ve got back to my original amazement at the whole business.  I find myself wondering what we are really up to, why the war began, why we were caught into this amazing routine.  It looks, it feels orderly, methodical, purposeful.  Our officers give us orders and get their orders, and the men back there get their orders.  Everybody is getting orders.  Back, I suppose, to Lord Kitchener.  It goes on for weeks with the effect of being quite sane and intended and the right thing, and then, then suddenly it comes whacking into one’s head, ‘But this—­this is utterly mad!’ This going to and fro and to and fro and to and fro; this monotony which breaks ever and again into violence—­violence that never gets anywhere—­is exactly the life that a lunatic leads.  Melancholia and mania....  It’s just a collective obsession—­by war.  The world is really quite mad.  I happen to be having just one gleam of sanity, that won’t last after I have finished this letter.  I suppose when an individual man goes mad and gets out of the window because he imagines the door is magically impossible, and dances about in the street without his trousers jabbing at passers-by with a toasting-fork, he has just the same sombre sense of unavoidable necessity that we have, all of us, when we go off with our packs into the trenches....

“It’s only by an effort that I can recall how life felt in the spring of 1914.  Do you remember Heinrich and his attempt to make a table chart of the roses, so that we could sit outside the barn and read the names of all the roses in the barn court?  Like the mountain charts they have on tables in Switzerland.  What an inconceivable thing that is now!  For all I know I shot Heinrich the other night.  For all I know he is one of the lumps that we counted after the attack went back.

“It’s a queer thing, Daddy, but I have a sort of seditious feeling in writing things like this.  One gets to feel that it is wrong to think.  It’s the effect of discipline.  Of being part of a machine.  Still, I doubt if I ought to think.  If one really looks into things in this spirit, where is it going to take us?  Ortheris—­his real name by the by is Arthur Jewell—­hasn’t any of these troubles.  ’The b——­y Germans butted into Belgium,’ he says.  ’We’ve got to ’oof ’em out again.  That’s all abart it.  Leastways it’s all I know....  I don’t know nothing about Serbia, I don’t know nothing about anything, except that the Germans got to stop this sort of gime for Everlasting, Amen.’...