had gone that in that class of life in France they
never shook hands with a lady, and that the poor man
was very much embarrassed. He was very useful
to W. as a political agent, as he was kind to the poor
people and took small (or no) fees. They all
loved him, and talked to him quite freely. His
women-kind were very shy and provincial. I think
our visits were a great trial to them. They always
returned them most punctiliously, and came in all
their best clothes. When we went to see them
we generally found them in short black skirts, and
when they were no longer very young, with black caps,
but they always had handsome silk dresses, velvet
cloaks, and hats with flowers and feathers when they
came to see us. Some of them took the cup of tea
we offered, but they didn’t know what to do
with it, and sat on the edge of their chairs, looking
quite miserable until we relieved them of the burden
of the tea-cup. Mme. A. was rather against
the tea-table; she preferred the old-fashioned tray
handed around with wine and cakes, but I persuaded
her to try, and after a little while she acknowledged
that it was better to have the tea-table brought in.
It made a diversion; I got up to make the tea.
Someone gave me a chair, someone else handed the cups.
It made a little movement, and was not so stiff as
when we all sat for over an hour on the same chairs
making conversation. It is terrible to have to
make conversation, and extraordinary how little one
finds to say. We had always talked easily enough
at home, but then things came more naturally, and even
the violent family discussions were amusing, but my
recollection of these French provincial visits is
something awful. Everybody so polite, so stiff,
and the long pauses when nobody seemed to have anything
to say. I of course was a novelty and a foreign
element—they didn’t quite know what
to do with me. Even to Mme. A., and I grew
very fond of her, and she was invariably charming
to me, I was something different. We had many
talks on every possible subject during our long drives,
and also in the winter afternoons. At first I
had my tea always upstairs in my own little salon,
which I loved with the curtains drawn, a bright wood-fire
burning, and all my books about; but when I found
that she sat alone in the big drawing-room, not able
to occupy herself in any way, I asked her if I might
order my tea there, and there were very few afternoons
that I didn’t sit with her when I was at home.
She talked often about her early married life—winters
in Cannes and in Paris, where they received a great
deal, principally Protestants, and I fancy she sometimes
regretted the interchange of ideas and the brilliant
conversation she had been accustomed to, but she never
said it. She was never tired of hearing about
my early days in America—our family life—the
extraordinary liberty of the young people, etc.
We often talked over the religious question, and though
we were both Protestants, we were as far apart almost