Across the road from Jacques De Arthenay’s house,
a huge drift had been piled by the first snowstorm
of the winter. Nearly as high as the house it
was, and its top combed forward, like a wave ready
to break; and in the blue hollow beneath the curling
crest was the likeness of a great face. A rock
cropped out, and ice had formed upon its surface,
so that the snow fell away from it. The explanation
was simple enough; Jacques De Arthenay, coming and
going at his work, never so much as looked at it; but
to Marie it was a strange and a dreadful thing to
see. Night and morning, in the cold blue light
of the winter moon and the bright hard glitter of the
winter sun, the face was always there, gazing in at
her through the window, seeing everything she did,
perhaps—who could tell?—seeing
everything she thought. She changed her seat,
and drew down the blind that faced the drift; yet
it had a strange fascination for her none the less,
and many times in the day she would go and peep through
the blind, and shiver, and then come away moaning
in a little way that she had when she was alone.
It was pitiful to see how she shrank from the cold,—the
tender creature who seemed born to live and bloom with
the flowers, perhaps to wither with them. Sometimes
it seemed to her as if she could not bear it, as if
she must run away and find the birds, and the green
and joyous things that she loved. The pines were
always green, it is true, in the little grove across
the way; but it was a solemn and gloomy green, to
her child’s mind,—she had not yet
learned to love the steadfast pines. Sometimes
she would open the door with a wild thought of flying
out, of flying far away, as the birds did, and rejoining
them in southern countries where the sun was warm,
and not a fire that froze while it lighted one.
So cold! so cold! But when she stood thus,
the little wild heart beating fiercely in her, the
icy blast would come and chill her into quiet again,
and turn the blood thick, so that it ran slower in
her veins; and she would think of the leagues and
leagues of pitiless snow and ice that lay between her
and the birds, and would close the door again, and
go back to her work with that little weary moan.
Her husband was very kind in these days; oh, very
kind and gentle. He kept the dark moods to himself,
if they came upon him, and tried even to be gay, though
he did not know how to set about it. If he had
ever known or looked at a child, this poor man, he
would have done better; but it was not a thing that
he had ever thought of, and he did not yet know that
Marie was a child. Sometimes when she saw him
looking at her with the grave, loving, uncomprehending
look that so often followed her as she moved about,
she would come to him and lay her head against his
shoulder, and remain quiet so for many minutes; but
when he moved to stroke her dark head, and say, “What
is it, Mary? what troubles you?” she could only
say that it was cold, very cold, and then go away again
about her work.