herself home.  And there they would eat what they had to eat, and afterward, because there was only their misery to talk of, they would crawl into bed and fall into a stupor and never stir until it was time to get up again, and dress by candlelight, and go back to the machines.  They were so numbed that they did not even suffer much from hunger, now; only the children continued to fret when the food ran short.

Yet the soul of Ona was not dead—­the souls of none of them were dead, but only sleeping; and now and then they would waken, and these were cruel times.  The gates of memory would roll open—­old joys would stretch out their arms to them, old hopes and dreams would call to them, and they would stir beneath the burden that lay upon them, and feel its forever immeasurable weight.  They could not even cry out beneath it; but anguish would seize them, more dreadful than the agony of death.  It was a thing scarcely to be spoken—­a thing never spoken by all the world, that will not know its own defeat.

They were beaten; they had lost the game, they were swept aside.  It was not less tragic because it was so sordid, because it had to do with wages and grocery bills and rents.  They had dreamed of freedom; of a chance to look about them and learn something; to be decent and clean, to see their child grow up to be strong.  And now it was all gone—­it would never be!  They had played the game and they had lost.  Six years more of toil they had to face before they could expect the least respite, the cessation of the payments upon the house; and how cruelly certain it was that they could never stand six years of such a life as they were living!  They were lost, they were going down—­and there was no deliverance for them, no hope; for all the help it gave them the vast city in which they lived might have been an ocean waste, a wilderness, a desert, a tomb.  So often this mood would come to Ona, in the nighttime, when something wakened her; she would lie, afraid of the beating of her own heart, fronting the blood-red eyes of the old primeval terror of life.  Once she cried aloud, and woke Jurgis, who was tired and cross.  After that she learned to weep silently—­their moods so seldom came together now!  It was as if their hopes were buried in separate graves.

Jurgis, being a man, had troubles of his own.  There was another specter following him.  He had never spoken of it, nor would he allow any one else to speak of it—­he had never acknowledged its existence to himself.  Yet the battle with it took all the manhood that he had—­and once or twice, alas, a little more.  Jurgis had discovered drink.

He was working in the steaming pit of hell; day after day, week after week—­until now, there was not an organ of his body that did its work without pain, until the sound of ocean breakers echoed in his head day and night, and the buildings swayed and danced before him as he went down the street.  And from all the unending horror of this there was a respite, a deliverance—­he could drink!  He could forget the pain, he could slip off the burden; he would see clearly again, he would be master of his brain, of his thoughts, of his will.  His dead self would stir in him, and he would find himself laughing and cracking jokes with his companions—­he would be a man again, and master of his life.