their eagerness to buy. That was his stern duty
in the second-hand department. But there had been
so many occasions on which he had never done his duty;
times when he was tempted to actual defiance of it,
when a wistful calculating look in the eyes of some
seedy scholar would knock all the moral fibre out of
him, and a two and sixpenny book would go for ninepence
or a shilling. And such was his conception of
loyalty to Rickman’s, that he generally paid
for these excesses out of his own pocket, so that conscience
was satisfied both ways. Therefore there had
been no moral element in his dislike to Rickman’s;
he had shrunk from it with the half-fantastic aversion
of the mind, not with this sickening hatred of the
soul. After three weeks of Lucia Harden’s
society, he had perceived how sordid were the beginnings
from which his life had sprung. As his boyish
dreams had been wrought like a broidery of stars on
the floor of the back-shop, so honour, an unattainable
ideal, had stood out in forlorn splendour against
a darker and a dirtier background. He had felt
himself obscurely tainted and involved. Now he
realized, as he had never realized before, that the
foundations of Rickman’s were laid in bottomless
corruption. It was a House built, not only on
every vile and vulgar art known to trade, but on many
instances of such a day’s work as this.
And it was into this pit of infamy that his father
was blandly inviting him to descend. He had such
an abominably clear vision of it that he writhed and
shuddered with shame and disgust; he could hardly
have suffered more if he had gone down into it bodily
himself. He endured in imagination the emotions
that his father should have felt and apparently did
not feel.
He came out of his shudderings and writhings unspeakably
consoled and clean; knowing that it is with such nausea
and pangs that the soul of honour is born.
Their eyes met; and it was the elder Rickman’s
turn for bitterness. It had come, the moment
that he had dreaded. He was afraid to meet his
son’s eyes, for he knew that they had judged
him. He felt that he stood revealed in that sudden
illumination of the boy’s radiant soul.
An instinct of self-preservation now prompted him to
belittle Keith’s character. He had found
amazing comfort in the reflection that Keith was not
all that he ought to be. As far as Isaac could
make out, he was always running after the women.
He was a regular young profligate, an infidel he was.
What right had he to sit in judgement?
Shrewd even in anger, he took refuge in an adroit
misconstruction of Keith’s language. “I
lay down no conditions. I’m much
too anxious about you. I want to see you in a
house of your own, settled down and married to some
good girl who’ll keep you steady and respectable.
It’s a simple straightforward offer, and you
take it or leave it.”
“I’ll take it on two conditions.
First, as I said before, that we either withdraw or
pay over that three thousand. Second, that in
the future no bargains are made without my knowledge—and
consent. That means giving me the entire control
of my own department.”