could assume with astonishing facility a hundred different
attitudes on the same question, and acted the penitent,
the indifferent, the defiant, with such a perfection
of art as really to deceive herself. And in spite
of all this, poor Storm soon found that she had wound
herself so closely about his heart, that the process
of unwinding, as he expressed it, would require greater
strength and a sterner philosophy than he believed
himself to possess. He had always been shy of
women, not because he distrusted them, but because
he was painfully conscious of being, in point of physical
finish, a second-rate article, a bungling piece of
work, and naturally felt his disadvantages more keenly
in the presence of those upon whom Nature had expended
all her best art. He was, according to his own
assertion, an idealist by temperament, and had kept
a sacred chamber in his heart where the vestal fire
burned with a pure flame. Now the deepest strata
of his being were stirred, and he loved with an overwhelming
fervor and intensity which fairly frightened him.
In a moment of abject despair he proposed to Emily,
and to his surprise was accepted. And what was
more, it was no comedy on her part; he even now believed
that she really loved him. All the turbulent
forces of her being were toned down to a beautiful,
womanly tenderness. She clung to him with a passionate
devotion which seemed to be no less of a surprise
to herself than it was to him—clung to
his stronger self, perhaps, as a refuge from her own
waywardness, listened with a sweet, shame-faced happiness
to his bright plans for their common future, and shared
his pleasures and his light disappointments with an
ardor and an ever ready sympathy, as if her whole
previous life had been an education for this one end—to
be a perfect wife and to be his wife.
But alas, their happiness was of brief duration.
At the end of a year he had finished his legal studies,
and passed a brilliant examination. An excellent
situation was obtained for him in a small town on the
sea-coast, whither he removed and began to prepare
for the foundation of his home. It was here he
contracted his taste for quaint furniture, all that
was now left to him of his happiness—nay,
of his life. Suddenly, at the end of eight months,
she ceased writing to him—a fact which
after all, argued well for her sincerity; full of
apprehension, he hastened to the capital and found
her engaged to a young lieutenant,—a dashing,
hare-brained fellow, covered all over with gilt embroidery,
undeniably handsome, but otherwise of very little
worth. At least that was Storm’s impression
of him; he may have done him injustice, he added,
with his usual conscientiousness. A man who sees
the whole structure of his life tumbling down over
his head is not apt to take a charitable view of the
author of the ruin. A week later, Storm was on
his way to America,—that was the end of
the story.
Yes, if my friend had died, according to his promise,
the story would have ended here; but, as for once,
he broke his word, I am obliged to add the sequel.
I noticed that for some time after his recovery he
kept shy of me. As he afterward plainly told me,
he felt as if I had purloined a piece of his most
precious private property, in sharing a grief which
had hitherto been his own exclusive treasure.