The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 09, No. 51, January, 1862 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 354 pages of information about The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 09, No. 51, January, 1862.

The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 09, No. 51, January, 1862 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 354 pages of information about The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 09, No. 51, January, 1862.

“Ther’s none knows it but yoh,” he said, in a smothered voice.  “Fur God’s sake be merciful!  It’ll kill my girl,—­it’ll kill her.  Gev me a chance, master.”

“You trouble me.  I must do what is just.”

“It’s not just,” he said, savagely.  “What good’ll it do me to go back ther’?  I was goin’ down, down, an’ bringin’ th’ others with me.  What good’ll it do you or the rest to hev me ther’?  To make me afraid?  It’s poor learnin’ frum fear.  Who taught me what was right?  Who cared?  No man cared fur my soul, till I thieved ‘n’ robbed; ‘n’ then judge ‘n’ jury ‘n’ jailers was glad to pounce on me.  Will yoh gev me a chance? will yoh?”

It was a desperate face before him; but Holmes never knew fear.

“Stand aside,” he said, quietly.  “To-morrow I will see you.  You need not try to escape.”

He passed him, and went slowly up through the vacant mill to his chamber.

The man sat down on the lower step a few moments, quite quiet, crushing his hat up in a slow, steady way, looking up at the mouldy cobwebs on the wall.  He got up at last, and went in to Lois.  Had she heard?  The old scarred face of the girl looked years older, he thought,—­but it might be fancy.  She did not say anything for a while, moving slowly, with a new gentleness, about him; her very voice was changed, older.  He tried to be cheerful, eating his supper:  she need not know until to-morrow.  He would get out of the town to-night, or—­There were different ways to escape.  When he had done, he told her to go; but she would not.

“Let me stay th’ night,” she said.  “I ben’t afraid o’ th’ mill.”

“Why, Lo,” he said, laughing, “yoh used to say yer death was hid here, somewheres.”

“I know.  But ther’s worse nor death.  But it’ll come right,” she said, persistently, muttering to herself, as she leaned her face on her knees, watching,—­“it’ll come right.”

The glimmering shadows changed and faded for an hour.  The man sat quiet.  There was not much in the years gone to soften his thought, as it grew desperate and cruel:  there was oppression and vice heaped on him, and flung back out of his bitter heart.  Nor much in the future:  a blank stretch of punishment to the end.  He was an old man:  was it easy to bear?  What if he were black? what if he were born a thief? what if all the sullen revenge of his nature had made him an outcast from the poorest poor?  Was there no latent good in this soul for which Christ died, that a kind hand might not have brought to life?  None?  Something, I think, struggled up in the touch of his hand, catching the skirt of his child’s dress, when it came near him, with the timid tenderness of a mother touching her dead baby’s hair,—­as something holy, far off, yet very near:  something in his old crime-marked face,—­a look like this dog’s, putting his head on my knee,—­a dumb, unhelpful love in his eyes, and the slow memory of a wrong done to his soul in a day long past.  A wrong to both, you say, perhaps; but if so, irreparable, and never to be recompensed.  Never?

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